`` If once they become inattentive to the public affairs '' , Jefferson said , `` you and << I >> , and Congress and assemblies , judges and governors , shall all become wolves '' . `` << I >> have to see the facts '' , is the way the prince puts it . He did say he was out of cans , the No. 3's , but `` << I >> requisitioned 22,000 '' . `` Don't ask << me >> if I think the cannery helps '' , he said . `` Don't ask me if << I >> think the cannery helps '' , he said . There is one thing << I >> know ; ; Several years ago << I >> was his pastor . After almost everyone had gone he told << me >> the simple story of how one of his neighbors had moved a fence a few feet over on his land . `` << I >> leave this church with a feeling that a great weight has been lifted off my heart , I have left my grudge at the altar and forgiven my neighbor '' . `` I leave this church with a feeling that a great weight has been lifted off my heart , << I >> have left my grudge at the altar and forgiven my neighbor '' . Once Peter asked , `` How oft shall my brother sin against << me >> , and I forgive him ? ? Once Peter asked , `` How oft shall my brother sin against me , and << I >> forgive him ? ? Her mother , now dead , was my good friend and when she came to tell us about her plans and to show off her ring << I >> had a sobering wish to say something meaningful to her , something her mother would wish said . For a while there was such shrill girlish commotion << I >> couldn't have made myself heard if I'd had the equivalent of the message to Garcia . But when some of the squeals had subsided and she had been through one of those sessions that are so indispensable to the young female -- six girls sprawled on one bed , drinking Cokes and giggling -- she came back to the kitchen to talk with << me >> a minute . << I >> asked , looking at her searchingly . Besides , in all honesty , << I >> don't know how you can be sure . << I >> don't know any secret recipe for certainty . << I >> asked . `` Bore << me >> '' ? ? `` << I >> mean '' , I went on ruthlessly , `` when he's not talking about you or himself or the wonders of love , is he interesting ? ? `` I mean '' , << I >> went on ruthlessly , `` when he's not talking about you or himself or the wonders of love , is he interesting ? ? She came back the other day to reassure << me >> . She asked if << I >> had other advice and , heady with success , I rushed it in , I hope not too late . She asked if I had other advice and , heady with success , << I >> rushed it in , I hope not too late . She asked if I had other advice and , heady with success , I rushed it in , << I >> hope not too late . << I >> do not know Dr. Wilson Sneed well . But << I >> was deeply moved by his letter of resignation as rector of St. Luke's Church in Atlanta . And so the young minister resigned , to go and study and pray , having never passed a day , he told his parishioners , when `` << I >> did not gain from you far more than I ever gave to you '' . And so the young minister resigned , to go and study and pray , having never passed a day , he told his parishioners , when `` I did not gain from you far more than << I >> ever gave to you '' . His very honest act called up the recent talk << I >> had with another minister , a modest Methodist , who said : `` I feel so deeply blessed by God when I can give a message of love and comfort to other men , and I would have it no other way : and it is unworthy to think of self . His very honest act called up the recent talk I had with another minister , a modest Methodist , who said : `` << I >> feel so deeply blessed by God when I can give a message of love and comfort to other men , and I would have it no other way : and it is unworthy to think of self . His very honest act called up the recent talk I had with another minister , a modest Methodist , who said : `` I feel so deeply blessed by God when << I >> can give a message of love and comfort to other men , and I would have it no other way : and it is unworthy to think of self . His very honest act called up the recent talk I had with another minister , a modest Methodist , who said : `` I feel so deeply blessed by God when I can give a message of love and comfort to other men , and << I >> would have it no other way : and it is unworthy to think of self . But oh , how << I >> do sometimes need just a moment of rest , and peace , in myself '' . `` << I >> like them things , too '' , he had said . << I >> do it , lots o' times -- I like to lie in a hammock at night , by myself , when it's all quiet . I do it , lots o' times -- << I >> like to lie in a hammock at night , by myself , when it's all quiet . `` Of course << I >> am '' , he said . << I >> just came out here to know it '' . The really remarkable thing to << me >> is that most California natives unhesitatingly elect to slow down and permit the invading car free access . Whether or not this is done out of enlightened self-preservation , << I >> don't know . At the risk of losing my charge-a-plate at Marshall Field and Company , << I >> would like to challenge an old and hallowed stereotype . After three months of research , << I >> can state unequivocally that Los Angeles drivers are considerably more courteous and competent than any other drivers I've ever encountered . During one recent day of driving about Los Angeles there were actually a dozen occasions when oncoming drivers stopped an entire lane of traffic to permit << me >> to pull out of an impossible side street . `` Now , if << I >> can just figure out what he's talking about , I'll use it '' . To << me >> , Brandt looks as though he could be in for a fine year . As the mother of an autistic child who is lacking in interest and enthusiasm about almost anything , << I >> have to manipulate my son's fingers for him when he first plays with a new toy . He wants << me >> to do everything for him . But << I >> do and my psychiatrist does , too . `` One thing << I >> notice which I have seldom heard mentioned . `` One thing I notice which << I >> have seldom heard mentioned . This is that autistic people don't enjoy physical contact with others -- for instance , my children and << I >> . When << I >> hold my son he stiffens his whole body in my arms until he is as straight and stiff as a board . `` << I >> try to treat Daniel as if he were normal , though of course I realize he is far from that at present . `` I try to treat Daniel as if he were normal , though of course << I >> realize he is far from that at present . What << I >> do is to try to bring him into contact with reality as much as possible . << I >> try to give him as many normal experiences as possible . Should << I >> show my daughter how things should be colored ? ? At least , << I >> have found it so . `` Remember the French railroad baron who was going to take << me >> floating down the Nile '' ? ? `` Sure , we met a barrel of rich men but it's hard to find the real thing when you're young , beautiful and the toast of two continents '' `` Remember Fanny Brice promised my mother she would look after << me >> on the road '' ? ? All this remembering took place the other night when << I >> had supper with the Ziegfeld Girls at the Beverly Hills Club . But watching Mrs. Cyril Ring , Berniece Dalton Janssen , Mrs. Robert Jarvis , Mrs. Walter Adams order low-calorie seafood , no bread , << I >> could see the Ziegfeld Girls of 1920 were determined to be glamorous grandmothers of 1961 . All << I >> could remember was Billie Dove pasted over the ceiling of my big brother's room . `` But John forbad him , saying , << I >> have need to be baptized of thee , and comest thou to me ? ? `` But John forbad him , saying , I have need to be baptized of thee , and comest thou to << me >> ? ? ' << I >> need rather to be baptized by you . Your suggested solution , it seems to << me >> , is grossly oversimplified and is inconsistent with your generally realistic attitude toward , and endorsement of , sound planning . << I >> submit that it cannot be dismissed simply by saying we are not facing the facts of life . << I >> feel compelled to write this because I am greatly concerned with the problem of community growth rate and the relation between types of growth in a town such as East Greenwich . I feel compelled to write this because << I >> am greatly concerned with the problem of community growth rate and the relation between types of growth in a town such as East Greenwich . << I >> believe it is an area in which professional planners have failed to set adequate guide posts ; ; Until professional planners meet this situation squarely and update the concepts of zoning in a manner acceptable to the courts , << I >> hope we in East Greenwich can continue to shape our own destiny . << I >> would like very much , on behalf of my husband and myself , to send our eternal thanks to all the wonderful people responsible for the Gabrielle Fund . << I >> am a sophomore at Mount Pleasant High School . A few weeks ago , << I >> read in the Bulletin that there were to be given Chinese classes in Cranston . The following week , << I >> read in the Sunday paper that the students of Russia begin European and Asian languages in the seventh grade . << I >> wish you could see the situation as I see it . I wish you could see the situation as << I >> see it . << I >> do not think that America is like Russia , not in the least ! ! << I >> am proud of my country , the small city I live in , my wonderful parents , my friends and my school ; ; I am proud of my country , the small city << I >> live in , my wonderful parents , my friends and my school ; ; but << I >> am also a young , able and willing girl who wants to study the Chinese language but is not old enough . At the height of the first snowstorm we had , it was impossible for << me >> to get medical attention needed during an emergency . Words cannot tell of the undivided attention and comfort their service gave to << me >> . The concern they felt for << me >> was such as I shall never forget and for which I will always be grateful . The concern they felt for me was such as << I >> shall never forget and for which I will always be grateful . The concern they felt for me was such as I shall never forget and for which << I >> will always be grateful . Had they not gotten << me >> to the hospital when they did , perhaps I would not be here to commend them at this time . Had they not gotten me to the hospital when they did , perhaps << I >> would not be here to commend them at this time . No psychiatrist could tell << me >> that the experience in a war can not have its effect in the ensuing years . But << I >> don't believe we should close the door on non-service-connected patients . Upon a visit to a local junior college last week , << I >> was shocked to see the young ladies wearing short shorts and the young men wearing Bermuda shorts . Rising costs have increased the difficulties of the elderly , and << I >> would be the last to say they should not receive consideration . -- In reply to a letter in Today's `` Voice '' urging the sale of meat after 6 p.m. , << I >> wish to state the other side of the story . << I >> am the wife of the owner of a small , independent meat market . -- << I >> , too , congratulate the American Legion , of which I am proud to have been a member for more than 40 years , on the recent state convention . -- I , too , congratulate the American Legion , of which << I >> am proud to have been a member for more than 40 years , on the recent state convention . Had << I >> been granted the floor on a point of personal privilege , the matter she raised would have been clarified . At no time did << I >> attempt to seek approval or commendation for the members of the Chicago board of election commissioners for the discharge of their duties . -- << I >> just want to let you know how much I enjoyed your June 25 article on Liberace , and to thank you for it . -- I just want to let you know how much << I >> enjoyed your June 25 article on Liberace , and to thank you for it . -- << I >> concur most heartily with today's letter on the futility of writing to Sen. Dirksen and Sen. Douglas . << I >> think we have the hardest working , best representative in Congress . << I >> am for it . Sir -- Permit << me >> to commend your editorial in which you stress the fact that a program of county colleges will substantially increase local tax burdens and that taxpayers have a right to a clear idea of what such a program would commit them to . Sir -- << I >> hasten to join in praise of the men in the toll booths on the Garden State Parkway . Recently << I >> traveled the parkway from East Orange to Cape May and I found the most courteous group of men you will find anywhere . Recently I traveled the parkway from East Orange to Cape May and << I >> found the most courteous group of men you will find anywhere . << I >> would ask , `` Why not do both '' ? ? << I >> feel that few burglars would be prone to break and enter into someone's apartment if they were met with a good hardy growl that a dog would provide . << I >> grant that the dog may not be really protective , based on his training , but if you were roaming the streets looking for a purse to snatch or a young lady to molest , how quick would you be to attack a person strolling with a dog ? ? << I >> would like to suggest that the landlords and Commissioners get together and consider liberalizing the practice of prohibiting dogs in apartments . << I >> have just returned from a seven-week trip to Europe and the Far East . << I >> have been absolutely shocked at the ineptness of the young ladies who are servicing person-to-person calls , special long-distance calls , etc. . << I >> disagree with the writer who says funeral services should be government-controlled . The funeral for my husband was just what << I >> wanted and I paid a fair price , far less than I had expected to pay . The funeral for my husband was just what I wanted and << I >> paid a fair price , far less than I had expected to pay . The funeral for my husband was just what I wanted and I paid a fair price , far less than << I >> had expected to pay . Recently << I >> visited the very remarkable Pilgrim School for retarded children . << I >> commend Senator Hart for his brave fight to establish a national park in the dunes area . << I >> just wish to congratulate Inspector Trimmer and his efficient police troops in cleaning the city of those horrible automobiles . << I >> worked on the Schuylkill Expressway and if it had not been for the big trucks carrying rock and concrete there wouldn't be an Expressway . << I >> suppose I am missing some elementary point but I honestly cannot see how two wrongs can make a right ! ! I suppose << I >> am missing some elementary point but I honestly cannot see how two wrongs can make a right ! ! I suppose I am missing some elementary point but << I >> honestly cannot see how two wrongs can make a right ! ! << I >> am referring to this country conducting atmosphere tests of nuclear bombs just because Russia is . As << I >> see it , if war starts and we survive the initial attack enough to be able to fight back , the nuclear weapons we now have -- at least the bombs -- can inflict all the demage that is necessary . << I >> repeat , two wrongs do not make a right . Having led the world in this mad race << I >> pray that we may have the wisdom and courage to lead it out of the race . While `` better late than never '' may have certain merits , the posthumous award of the Nobel Prize for Peace to the late Dag Hammarskjold strikes << me >> as less than a satisfactory expression of appreciation . << I >> wish to advocate two drastic changes in Washington Square : 1 . The matter may seem a small thing to some people , << I >> know , but it's a very good start on the road to Totalitarianism The Commission has posted signs in Washington Square saying : One means to help the birds occurs to << me >> : Let the chimes that ring over Washington Square twice daily , discontinue any piece of music but one . << I >> must , in fairness , take issue with his premise , primarily because the so-called scandals in labor unions were very much connected with business scandals . Everywhere << I >> went in Formosa I asked the same question . Everywhere I went in Formosa << I >> asked the same question . << I >> was searching for an accent of self-delusion or , even , of hypocrisy . << I >> never found it among any of the Chinese with whom I spoke , though granted they were , almost all , members of the official family who , presumably , harbor official thoughts . I never found it among any of the Chinese with whom << I >> spoke , though granted they were , almost all , members of the official family who , presumably , harbor official thoughts . And then << I >> put the question as pointedly as I could directly to Chiang Kai-shek : `` In America '' , I said , `` practically no one believes that you subjectively intend to re-enter the Mainland . And then I put the question as pointedly as << I >> could directly to Chiang Kai-shek : `` In America '' , I said , `` practically no one believes that you subjectively intend to re-enter the Mainland . And then I put the question as pointedly as I could directly to Chiang Kai-shek : `` In America '' , << I >> said , `` practically no one believes that you subjectively intend to re-enter the Mainland . He smiled also at a British bloke seated next to << me >> , who asked the most asinine questions . << I >> recalled sympathetically the Duke's complaint in Browning's `` My Last Duchess '' . ) He smiled , and said a word or two to the interpreter , who turned to << me >> , `` The President wonders where you are going after you leave Taipei '' ? ? That , << I >> smarted , is a royal rebuff if ever there was one . The planners in Taiwan struck << me >> as realistic men . << I >> remarked jocularly to the President that the future of China would be far more certain if he would invite a planeload of selected American Liberals to Quemoy on an odd day . He : `` Come with << me >> to the Casbah '' . But it seems that pressures against him are coming from somewhere -- in the first place from China , but perhaps also from that `` China Lobby '' which , << I >> was assured in Moscow nearly two years ago , exists on the quiet inside the party . Next September , after receiving a degree from Yale's Master of Arts in Teaching Program , << I >> will be teaching somewhere -- that much is guaranteed by the present shortage of mathematics teachers . << I >> will also be underpaid . If it is not enough that all of our internationalist One Worlders are advocating that we join this market , << I >> refer you to an article in the New York Times' magazine section ( Nov. 12 , 1961 ) , by Mr. Eric Johnston , entitled `` We Must Join The Common Market '' . In 1954 << I >> was drafted and after serving two years honorably on Active Duty I was not required to participate in any further Army Reserve activities . In 1954 I was drafted and after serving two years honorably on Active Duty << I >> was not required to participate in any further Army Reserve activities . Now , more than five years later , << I >> cannot in any realistic sense be called a trained soldier . Today , seven years after the date of my initial induction as a draftee , << I >> am Assistant Professor of Philosophy and Science at St. Michael's College . For , after leaving the Army in 1956 , << I >> spent five years in Graduate School first at Boston College and then at the University of Toronto . This time , added to that which << I >> had already spent in school prior to my induction in 1954 , makes a total of twenty-two ( 22 ) years of education . In my own case , << I >> submit that such reasonable and fair exercise is woefully lacking . Taken back into the Army now as an Sp 4 , << I >> am leaving 110 college students whose teacher I am . Taken back into the Army now as an Sp 4 , I am leaving 110 college students whose teacher << I >> am . Even apart from the fact that now at the age of 31 my personal life is being totally disrupted for the second time for no very compelling reason -- << I >> cannot help looking around at the black leather jacket brigades standing idly on the street corners and in the taverns of every American city and asking myself if our society has gone mad . In news broadcasts << I >> consistently hear the foreign volunteers fighting in the Katanga Army referred to as mercenaries . This confuses << me >> no end . Facing a prosecution which has demanded the death penalty , he said : ' << I >> have participated in the war against Communism in Korea and at Dienbienphu , and I have helped in the evacuation of North Vietnamese to the free world . Facing a prosecution which has demanded the death penalty , he said : ' I have participated in the war against Communism in Korea and at Dienbienphu , and << I >> have helped in the evacuation of North Vietnamese to the free world . << I >> have done all this for the freedom of the individuals concerned and also for the states which have been threatened by Communist domination . << I >> found recently a very small article in the New York Times : A few days before << I >> saw your mention of what Texas Liberals were doing to promote `` Louis Capet '' ( The Week '' , June 3 ) , another analogy had occurred to me . A few days before I saw your mention of what Texas Liberals were doing to promote `` Louis Capet '' ( The Week '' , June 3 ) , another analogy had occurred to << me >> . It seems to << me >> that N.C. , in his editorial `` Confrontation '' ( SR , Mar. 25 ) , has hit upon the real problem that bothers all of us in a complex world : how do we retain our personal relationship with those who suffer ? ? << I >> know of no other solution than the one N.C. proposes -- to do what we can for each sufferer as he confronts us , hoping that this will spread beyond him to others at some time and some place . << I >> feel that N.C. hit the very core of our existence in the editorial `` Confrontation '' . << I >> concur that it is necessary for Americans to have a confrontation of the situation existing in foreign lands . << I >> personally gained strength from it . << I >> would like to see you devote some space in an early issue to the news blackout concerning President Kennedy's activities , so far as Southern California is concerned . The radio stations did run `` transcripts '' ( << I >> thought ) during the evening hours . However , by comparing the TV snatches , two different radio station re-runs , and the censored Los Angeles Times version , << I >> found that the radio stations had edited out questions ( ABC removed the one regarding Laos ) or even a paragraph out of the middle of the President's answer . << I >> am interested to know he is getting mail from all over the country about the `` abuse '' he is being subjected to . It also happened with the Inauguration , which was not re-run at all during the evening hours , and << I >> wrote to the TV editor of the Times . This is one of the most constructive suggestions made in this critical field in years , and << I >> certainly hope it sparks some action . `` << I >> have read an advance copy of the Snow book which is to be titled , ' Science And Government . Until the work actually appears << I >> am not privileged to analyze it publicly in detail . But << I >> have compared its text with already published commentaries on the 1960 series of Godkin lectures at Harvard , from which the book was derived , and I can with confidence challenge the gist of C. P. Snow's incautious tale '' . But I have compared its text with already published commentaries on the 1960 series of Godkin lectures at Harvard , from which the book was derived , and << I >> can with confidence challenge the gist of C. P. Snow's incautious tale '' . << I >> think it was a grave error to print the article at this time . So << I >> started making some calls of my own . Another is a wily countryman called Larkin , whose blandly boisterous progress has been chronicled , << I >> believe , in earlier volumes of Mr. Bates' comedie humaine . So << I >> made no mention of air transport until we could get at least some of it '' . << I >> saw `` Fiorello ! ! '' Performed in New York by the original cast and << I >> think this company is every bit as good , and perhaps better . Bob Carroll may not bear quite as close a physical resemblance to LaGuardia as Tom Bosley does , but << I >> was amazed at the way he became more and more Fiorello as the evening progressed , until one had to catch one's self up and remember that this wasn't really LaGuardia come back among us again . Such fascinating novelties in the score as the fugual treatment of `` On The Side Of The Angels '' and `` Politics And Poker '' were handled splendidly , and << I >> thought Rudy Bond and his band of tuneful ward-heelers made `` Little Tin Box '' even better than it was done by the New York cast ; ; ( Several times recently << I >> have wondered whether shows were being staged for the sake of the script or just to entertain the audience with the spectacle of scenery being shifted right in front of their eyes . Since the hero , a sterling and upright fellow , is a rich Brown senior , while two Yalies are cast as virtual rapists , << I >> suppose I should disqualify myself from sitting in judgment on `` Where The Boys Are '' , but I shall do nothing of the sort . Since the hero , a sterling and upright fellow , is a rich Brown senior , while two Yalies are cast as virtual rapists , I suppose << I >> should disqualify myself from sitting in judgment on `` Where The Boys Are '' , but I shall do nothing of the sort . Since the hero , a sterling and upright fellow , is a rich Brown senior , while two Yalies are cast as virtual rapists , I suppose I should disqualify myself from sitting in judgment on `` Where The Boys Are '' , but << I >> shall do nothing of the sort . The answers the girls give struck << me >> as reasonably varied and healthily individual . If most of them weren't exactly specific -- well , that's the way it is in life , << I >> guess . << I >> was delighted with Paula Prentiss' comedy performance , which was as fresh and unstilted as one's highest hopes might ask . << I >> must say , however , that I preferred the acting that had something of a biting edge to it . I must say , however , that << I >> preferred the acting that had something of a biting edge to it . Although << I >> absolutely reject the Platonism of it , I have literally squealed with delight at the imperturbable perfection with which the position is laid down on page after page '' . Although I absolutely reject the Platonism of it , << I >> have literally squealed with delight at the imperturbable perfection with which the position is laid down on page after page '' . But there is a dignity and even a hint of the inspired prophet in his words to one correspondent : `` You ask what << I >> am going to ' reply ' to Bradley . All polemic of ours should , << I >> believe , be either very broad statements of contrast , or fine points treated singly , and as far as possible impersonally . `` One of them banged the sash of the window nearest my bed around midnight in July and << I >> leaped out of sleep and out of bed . ' It's just a bat ' , said my wife reassuringly , and << I >> sighed with relief . ' Thank God for that ' , << I >> said ; ; ' << I >> thought it was a human being ' '' . This is something like what Thurber's best effects are like , if << I >> am not mistaken . It sometimes threatens to linger in the memory after the final curtain , and some of it , such as the catchy `` Sez << I >> '' , does . << I >> make this observation about the lady , Miss Judy Garland , because she brought up the subject herself in telling a story about a British female reporter who flattered her terribly in London recently and then wrote in the paper the next day : There also came a brief contretemps with the sound mixers who made the mistake of being overheard during a quiet moment near the conclusion of `` Do It Again '' , and she made the tart observation that `` << I >> never saw so much moving about in an audience '' . Sometimes they struck << me >> as horribly over-arranged -- which was the way I felt about her `` Come Rain or Come Shine '' -- and sometimes they were just plain magnificent , like her shatteringly beautiful `` Beautiful Weather '' . Sometimes they struck me as horribly over-arranged -- which was the way << I >> felt about her `` Come Rain or Come Shine '' -- and sometimes they were just plain magnificent , like her shatteringly beautiful `` Beautiful Weather '' . Shearing , himself , seemed to << me >> to be playing better piano than in his recent Newport appearances . Yet there is the classic case of the Gershwins' `` The Man << I >> Love '' . Dorothy Loudon's raucous listing of the attractions `` At The Roxy Music Hall '' from `` << I >> Married An Angel '' ; ; With three fine Russian films in recent months on World War 2 , -- `` The House << I >> Live In '' , `` The Cranes Are Flying '' and `` Ballad Of A Soldier '' -- we had every right to expect a real Soviet block-buster in `` The Day The War Ended '' . `` He has married << me >> with a ring of bright water '' , begins the Kathleen Raine poem from which Maxwell takes his title , and it is this mystic bond between the human and natural world that the author conveys . << I >> say `` apparently '' although I saw Jouvet as Arnolphe when he visited this country shortly before his death ; ; I say `` apparently '' although << I >> saw Jouvet as Arnolphe when he visited this country shortly before his death ; ; `` << I >> Saw Stars '' , `` Lover Man '' , `` Menilmontant '' and `` Swing 42 '' . But << I >> am afraid Mr. Wesker's meat and potatoes dish isn't well seasoned enough for local audiences . `` << I >> like to sniff a place , and reproduce what it really smells and looks like , its color , its particular kind of life '' . The jacket biography describes him as a former racing driver , and he may indeed have been , although << I >> do not recall having encountered his name either in the records or the literature . a Portago could say , as he did say to << me >> , `` If I die tomorrow , still I have had twenty-eight wonderful years ; ; a Portago could say , as he did say to me , `` If << I >> die tomorrow , still I have had twenty-eight wonderful years ; ; a Portago could say , as he did say to me , `` If I die tomorrow , still << I >> have had twenty-eight wonderful years ; ; but << I >> shan't die tomorrow ; ; << I >> hear the boot of Lucifer , I see his filthy face '' ! ! I hear the boot of Lucifer , << I >> see his filthy face '' ! ! If to be a Christian means to say yes where << I >> otherwise say no , or where I do not have the right to say anything at all , then my only choice is to refuse to be a Christian . If to be a Christian means to say yes where I otherwise say no , or where << I >> do not have the right to say anything at all , then my only choice is to refuse to be a Christian . As an American Catholic of Irish ancestry , << I >> came with certain preconceptions and expectations ; ; being intellectually influenced by Newman and the general 19th-century literature of England , << I >> knew only a Protestant-dominated country . Since arriving here , however , << I >> have formed a far different religious picture of present-day England . In representing part of this new picture , << I >> will be recounting some of my own personal experiences , reactions and judgments ; ; Since the Protestant clergy for the most part wear gray or some variant from the wholly black suit , my Roman collar and black garb usually identify << me >> in England as a Roman Catholic cleric . In any case , << I >> have always been treated with the utmost courtesy by Englishmen , even in Devonshire and Cornwall , where anti-Catholic feeling has supposedly existed the strongest and longest . Nowhere have << I >> seen public expression of anti-Catholicism . On my first Guy Fawkes Day here , << I >> found Catholics as well as non-Catholics celebrating with the traditional fireworks and bonfires , and was told that most Englishmen either do not know or are not concerned with the historical significance of the day . `` When you pile your `` guy '' on the bonfire tomorrow night , << I >> wonder how much of the true story of Guy Fawkes you will remember ? ? A Protestant woman marveled to << me >> over the large crowds going in and out of the Birmingham Oratory ( Catholic ) Church on Sunday mornings . An Anglican clergyman in Oxford sadly but frankly acknowledged to << me >> that this is true . << I >> have not seen this charge made during my stay here , but apparently it is still in the air . << I >> think it fair to say that he never quite reached such candor in his sermons . By reminding ourselves of these factors in the situation , we should , << I >> am sure , come to a fresh realization , however painful it be , that the battle between Parker and his neighbors was fought in earnest . You and << I >> do the same thing . `` If it gave << me >> pleasure to say hard things '' , he wrote , `` I would shut up forever '' . `` If it gave me pleasure to say hard things '' , he wrote , `` << I >> would shut up forever '' . We have to tell ourselves that when Parker spoke in this vein , he believed what he said , because he could continue , `` But the truth , which cost << me >> bitter tears to say , I must speak , though it cost other tears hotter than fire '' . We have to tell ourselves that when Parker spoke in this vein , he believed what he said , because he could continue , `` But the truth , which cost me bitter tears to say , << I >> must speak , though it cost other tears hotter than fire '' . We have not the leisure , or the patience , or the skill , to comprehend what was working in the mind and heart of a then recent graduate from the Harvard Divinity School who would muster the audacity to contradict his most formidable instructor , the majesterial Andrews Norton , by saying that , while he believed Jesus `` like other religious teachers '' , worked miracles , `` << I >> see not how a miracle proves a doctrine '' . << I >> have , within the past fifty years , come out of all uncertainty into a faith which is a dominating conviction of the Truth and about which I have not a shadow of doubt . I have , within the past fifty years , come out of all uncertainty into a faith which is a dominating conviction of the Truth and about which << I >> have not a shadow of doubt . << I >> have also constantly engaged in scientific work and am fully aware of the value of opinions formed in science as well as in the religions in the world . In an amateurish , yet in a very real sense , << I >> have followed the developments of archaeology , geology , astronomy , herpetology , and mycology with a hearty appreciation of the advances being made in these fields . At one time << I >> became disturbed in the faith in which I had grown up by the apparent inroads being made upon both Old and New Testaments by a `` Higher Criticism '' of the Bible , to refute which I felt the need of a better knowledge of Hebrew and of archaeology , for it seemed to me that to pull out some of the props of our faith was to weaken the entire structure . At one time I became disturbed in the faith in which << I >> had grown up by the apparent inroads being made upon both Old and New Testaments by a `` Higher Criticism '' of the Bible , to refute which I felt the need of a better knowledge of Hebrew and of archaeology , for it seemed to me that to pull out some of the props of our faith was to weaken the entire structure . At one time I became disturbed in the faith in which I had grown up by the apparent inroads being made upon both Old and New Testaments by a `` Higher Criticism '' of the Bible , to refute which << I >> felt the need of a better knowledge of Hebrew and of archaeology , for it seemed to me that to pull out some of the props of our faith was to weaken the entire structure . At one time I became disturbed in the faith in which I had grown up by the apparent inroads being made upon both Old and New Testaments by a `` Higher Criticism '' of the Bible , to refute which I felt the need of a better knowledge of Hebrew and of archaeology , for it seemed to << me >> that to pull out some of the props of our faith was to weaken the entire structure . Doubts thus inculcated left << me >> floundering for a while and , like some higher critical friends , trying to continue to use the Bible as the Word of God while at the same time holding it to have been subjected to a vast number of redactions and interpolations : attempting to bridge the chasm between an older , reverent , Bible-loving generation and a critical , doubting , Bible-emancipated race . To ask << me >> to believe that so inexpressibly marvelous a book was written long after all the events by some admiring follower , and was not inspired directly by the Spirit of God , is asking me to accept a miracle far greater than any of those recorded in the Bible . To ask me to believe that so inexpressibly marvelous a book was written long after all the events by some admiring follower , and was not inspired directly by the Spirit of God , is asking << me >> to accept a miracle far greater than any of those recorded in the Bible . Here << I >> took my leave of my learned friends to step out on another path , to which we might give the modern name of Pragmatism , or the thing that works . So , << I >> put my Bible to the practical test of noting what it says about itself , and then tested it to see how it worked . As a short , possibly not the best method , << I >> looked up `` Word '' in the Concordance and noted that the Bible claims from Genesis 1 to Revelation 22 to be God's personal message to man . The next traditional step then was to accept it as the authoritative textbook of the Christian faith just as one would accept a treatise on any earthly `` science '' , and << I >> submitted to its conditions according to Christ's invitation and promise that , `` If any man will do his will , he shall know of the doctrine , whether it be of God , or whether I speak of myself '' ( John 7 : 17 ) . The next traditional step then was to accept it as the authoritative textbook of the Christian faith just as one would accept a treatise on any earthly `` science '' , and I submitted to its conditions according to Christ's invitation and promise that , `` If any man will do his will , he shall know of the doctrine , whether it be of God , or whether << I >> speak of myself '' ( John 7 : 17 ) . << I >> now ever look for Christ according to His promises and those of the Old Testament as well , to appear again in glory to put away all sin and to reign in righteousness over the whole earth . << I >> place His precepts and His leadings above every seeming probability , dismissing cherished convictions and holding the wisdom of man as folly when opposed to Him . << I >> discern no limits to a faith vested in God and Christ , who is the sum of all wisdom and knowledge , and daring to trust Him even though called to stand alone before the world . << I >> stood at the bedside of my patient one day and beheld a very sick man in terrible pain . In his heart he had that peace of which the Lord spoke when He said , `` Peace << I >> leave with you , my peace I give unto you : not as the world giveth , give I unto you . In his heart he had that peace of which the Lord spoke when He said , `` Peace I leave with you , my peace << I >> give unto you : not as the world giveth , give I unto you . In his heart he had that peace of which the Lord spoke when He said , `` Peace I leave with you , my peace I give unto you : not as the world giveth , give << I >> unto you . << I >> praise God for the privilege of being a nurse who has that peace through faith in the Lord Jesus Christ . How often have << I >> looked to Jesus when entering the sick room , asking for His presence and help in my professional duties as I give my talents not only as the world giveth but as one who loves the Saviour and His creatures . How often have I looked to Jesus when entering the sick room , asking for His presence and help in my professional duties as << I >> give my talents not only as the world giveth but as one who loves the Saviour and His creatures . `` << I >> am resting today in His wonderful peace , << I >> am kept from all danger by night and by day , whom shall << I >> fear ? ? << I >> doubt that `` fear parties '' and `` group confessionals '' will help very much . whom shall << I >> fear ? ? of whom shall << I >> be afraid '' ? ? Read the next two verses : `` When the wicked , even mine enemies and my foes , came upon << me >> to eat up my flesh , they stumbled and fell . whom shall << I >> fear ? ? of whom shall << I >> be afraid '' ? ? In fact , He came into this world Himself , in the person of His Son , Jesus Christ , who stood here amid the darkness of human sin and said : `` << I >> am the light of the world : he that followeth me shall not walk in darkness , but shall have the light of life '' . In fact , He came into this world Himself , in the person of His Son , Jesus Christ , who stood here amid the darkness of human sin and said : `` I am the light of the world : he that followeth << me >> shall not walk in darkness , but shall have the light of life '' . The only way that << I >> can see is through communication . By personal factors << I >> mean those rooted in personality structure . The progressive closing of Afro-Asian ears to the Christian message is epitomized in a conversation << I >> had three years ago while flying from Jerusalem to Cairo . << I >> was seated next to the director of the Seventh Day Adventists' world radio program . Although << I >> have emphasized the barriers which an aroused nationalism has raised against relations between Christians and non-Christians in Asia , the fact is that this development has also widened the gulf between certain Afro-Asian religions themselves . << I >> turn finally to several theological developments . << I >> do not mean to imply that Christians have adopted the liberal assumption , so prevalent in Hinduism , that all religions are merely different paths to the same summit . In mentioning this under `` salvation reconsidered '' << I >> do not mean to imply that Roman Catholic doctrine has changed in this area but rather that it has become clearer to the world community what that doctrine is . << I >> mean , however , that the moral theologian knows what he means by `` permit '' . But << I >> can only make this choice because I believe that the risk need not increase , but may be deliberately reduced '' ( by precautions against accidents or by limiting war ? ? But I can only make this choice because << I >> believe that the risk need not increase , but may be deliberately reduced '' ( by precautions against accidents or by limiting war ? ? `` If Philip Toynbee is claiming that the choice lies between capitulation and the risk of nuclear war , << I >> think he is right . You know that << I >> could hold right here in my hand the little chunk of uranium metal that was the heart of the bomb that dropped on Hiroshima . << I >> have calculated that if I could snap my fingers in one magic gesture to release the power of all the hydrogen in my body , I would explode with the force of a hundred bombs of the kind that fell on Hiroshima . I have calculated that if << I >> could snap my fingers in one magic gesture to release the power of all the hydrogen in my body , I would explode with the force of a hundred bombs of the kind that fell on Hiroshima . I have calculated that if I could snap my fingers in one magic gesture to release the power of all the hydrogen in my body , << I >> would explode with the force of a hundred bombs of the kind that fell on Hiroshima . << I >> won't try the experiment , but I think you can see that if we all knew the secret and we could all let ourselves go , there would be quite an explosion . I won't try the experiment , but << I >> think you can see that if we all knew the secret and we could all let ourselves go , there would be quite an explosion . For if << I >> knew the secret of letting this power in my body change directly into electricity , I could rent myself out to the electric companies and with just the power in my body I could light all the lights and run all the factories in the entire United States for some days . For if I knew the secret of letting this power in my body change directly into electricity , << I >> could rent myself out to the electric companies and with just the power in my body I could light all the lights and run all the factories in the entire United States for some days . For if I knew the secret of letting this power in my body change directly into electricity , I could rent myself out to the electric companies and with just the power in my body << I >> could light all the lights and run all the factories in the entire United States for some days . << I >> have been trying to make this clear to my own class in chemistry . One night there were some dried peas lying on our kitchen table , and these peas looked to << me >> like a little group of atoms ; ; and << I >> asked myself a question : Suppose I had the same number of peas as there are atoms in my body , how large an area would they cover ? ? and I asked myself a question : Suppose << I >> had the same number of peas as there are atoms in my body , how large an area would they cover ? ? << I >> calculated first that there are about an octillion atoms in the average human body ; ; Then << I >> calculated that a million peas would just about fill a household refrigerator ; ; << I >> start growing rapidly and this calcium atom grows along with me . I start growing rapidly and this calcium atom grows along with << me >> . << I >> shoot up through the roof , into the sky , past the clouds , through the stratosphere , out beyond the moon , out among the planets , until I am over a hundred and fifty million miles long . I shoot up through the roof , into the sky , past the clouds , through the stratosphere , out beyond the moon , out among the planets , until << I >> am over a hundred and fifty million miles long . If << I >> could put your body in an imaginary atomic press and squeeze you down , squeeze these holes out of you in the way we squeeze the holes out of a sponge , you would get smaller and smaller until finally when the last hole was gone , you would be smaller than the smallest speck of dust that you could see on this piece of paper . Thereupon Hwang Pah said : `` If << I >> knew thou art an Arhat , I would have doubled you up before thou got over there '' ! ! Thereupon Hwang Pah said : `` If I knew thou art an Arhat , << I >> would have doubled you up before thou got over there '' ! ! `` Early this morning '' , replied the other , `` << I >> set out from India '' . `` << I >> stopped '' , responded the man , `` several times to look at beautiful sceneries '' . `` Thou mayst have supernatural powers '' , exclaimed Yang Shan , `` yet thou must give back the Spirit of Buddha to << me >> '' . Then the monk praised Yang Shan saying : `` << I >> have come over to China in order to worship Manjucri , and met unexpectedly with Minor Shakya '' , and after giving the master some palm leaves he brought from India , went back through the air . Do not wonder that << I >> said to thee , `` You must be born again '' . for it is written , You shall be holy , because << I >> am holy . << I >> am convinced of this , that he who has begun a good work in you will bring it to perfection until the day of Christ Jesus . `` Amen , amen , << I >> say to thee , unless a man be born again of water and the Spirit , he cannot enter into the kingdom of God . Do not wonder that << I >> said to thee , ' You must be born again ' '' . << I >> came that they may have life . It is now no longer << I >> that live , but Christ lives in me . It is now no longer I that live , but Christ lives in << me >> . And the life that << I >> now live in the flesh , I live in the faith of the Son of God , who loved me and gave himself up for me . And the life that I now live in the flesh , << I >> live in the faith of the Son of God , who loved me and gave himself up for me . And the life that I now live in the flesh , I live in the faith of the Son of God , who loved << me >> and gave himself up for me . And the life that I now live in the flesh , I live in the faith of the Son of God , who loved me and gave himself up for << me >> . Our blessed Lord Jesus Christ , the sinless Son of God , who could not lie , said , `` Amen , amen , << I >> say to thee , unless a man be born again , he cannot see the kingdom of God '' ( St. John 3 : 3 ) . Being convinced that salvation is alone by accepting Christ as Saviour , and being convicted by the Holy Spirit of my lost condition , << I >> do repent of all effort to be saved by any form of good works , and just now receive Jesus as my personal Saviour and salvation as a free gift from Him . He has said , `` Behold , << I >> stand at the door , and knock : if any man hear my voice , and open the door , I will come in to him , and will sup with him , and he with me '' ( Revelation 3:20 : : He has said , `` Behold , I stand at the door , and knock : if any man hear my voice , and open the door , << I >> will come in to him , and will sup with him , and he with me '' ( Revelation 3:20 : : He has said , `` Behold , I stand at the door , and knock : if any man hear my voice , and open the door , I will come in to him , and will sup with him , and he with << me >> '' ( Revelation 3:20 : : << I >> am a magazine ; ; When you read << me >> , you are holding in your hands the product of many minds and hearts . To << me >> , the explanation is very simple . << I >> am not doing anything , of myself . << I >> am merely a channel for something . << I >> cannot define it fully . The crisis later on when debts seemed about to overwhelm << me >> . Today more than a thousand industries distribute << me >> to their employees . Hundreds of civic clubs , business firms and individuals make << me >> available to school teachers throughout the land . Bedridden people say << I >> am easy to hold -- and read . Throughout these exciting years << I >> have been fortunate for , although I have never offered great financial inducements , talent has found its way to me : William Boal who so ably organizes business operations ; ; Throughout these exciting years I have been fortunate for , although << I >> have never offered great financial inducements , talent has found its way to me : William Boal who so ably organizes business operations ; ; Throughout these exciting years I have been fortunate for , although I have never offered great financial inducements , talent has found its way to << me >> : William Boal who so ably organizes business operations ; ; << I >> need your support , your criticism , your encouragement , your prayers . << I >> am a magazine ; ; At first << I >> was happy to throw the support of our newspaper behind this man . << I >> am sure that Castro was happy , too , about that support . My own earliest memories are of exiles : my three brothers and << I >> were taken often to the United States `` to visit relatives '' while my father stayed on to fight the dictator Machado . When it was my turn , << I >> , too , printed the truth as I knew it about Batista , and rejoiced to see his regime topple . When it was my turn , I , too , printed the truth as << I >> knew it about Batista , and rejoiced to see his regime topple . Within a week , however , << I >> began to suspect that something was wrong . << I >> had watched Castro handling his enemies before the paredon . There was no doubt in my mind that if << I >> crossed him , mobs would appear outside our windows shouting `` Paredon ! ! << I >> was proud of the new buildings which housed Diario now : the rotogravures , gleaming behind glass doors ; ; Here was a powerful , ready-made medium , but it could speak only if << I >> told it to . Then one day , early in January , 1960 , << I >> sat down at my desk , and suddenly I was aware of the crucifix . Then one day , early in January , 1960 , I sat down at my desk , and suddenly << I >> was aware of the crucifix . << I >> had mounted it on velvet and hung it over my desk to remind me always to use the power of the paper in a Christian manner . I had mounted it on velvet and hung it over my desk to remind << me >> always to use the power of the paper in a Christian manner . Now it seemed almost as if Jesus were looking down at << me >> with sadness in His eyes , saying : << I >> knew in that moment that I did not have any choice . I knew in that moment that << I >> did not have any choice . From that day on << I >> began to write editorials about the things I did not think correct in Fidel Castro's regime . From that day on I began to write editorials about the things << I >> did not think correct in Fidel Castro's regime . The exercise << I >> shall discuss in this -- the first of a new series of articles on muscle definition-specialization of a particular body part -- is the One Leg Lunge . Although << I >> suggested that you hold the bar at the back of the neck there's no reason why you shouldn't make some experiments with the bar held in front of the neck . << I >> sought out the gardener and asked him what he did to produce such beauties in that weather . `` << I >> just love them '' , he said . The more << I >> talked with him , the more convinced I became that that was the secret of their riotous blooming . The more I talked with him , the more convinced << I >> became that that was the secret of their riotous blooming . These specialists , << I >> learned , have done a great deal of work to improve the size and health of the plants and the resulting flowers . << I >> asked him if he took seeds from his own plants . but pansy seeds , he told << me >> , soon `` run down '' . << I >> fingered it and had the feeling of adequacy that comes with the right texture , tilth and body . << I >> like to make a seedbed right in the open , though many people start them successfully in cold frames . For my seedbed << I >> use good garden soil with a little sand added to encourage rooting . << I >> dig it , rake it smooth , sow the seeds and wet them down with a fog spray . When the first sprinkling of green appears << I >> remove the board . As soon as they are large enough to move , << I >> put mine 9 inches apart where they are to bloom . << I >> doubt if it is possible to overfeed them . << I >> spade lots of compost into their bed ; ; One year << I >> simply set the plants in the remains of a compost pile , to which a little sand had been added , and I had the most beautiful pansies in my , or any of my neighbors' experience . One year I simply set the plants in the remains of a compost pile , to which a little sand had been added , and << I >> had the most beautiful pansies in my , or any of my neighbors' experience . << I >> like hay for this and apply it so that only the tops of the plants show right after a good frost . The pansies << I >> cherished most bloomed for me in February during a particularly cold winter . The pansies I cherished most bloomed for << me >> in February during a particularly cold winter . ( An unheated greenhouse would have been better , if << I >> had had one . << I >> like to shear half my plants at a time , leaving one half of them to blossom while the second half is getting started on its new round of blooming . Recently << I >> was struck anew by the divergent approaches , when in the course of one afternoon and evening I listened to no fewer than ten different performances . Recently I was struck anew by the divergent approaches , when in the course of one afternoon and evening << I >> listened to no fewer than ten different performances . But Schnabel was a great teacher in addition to being a great performer , and the fact that four of the ten versions << I >> listened to are by Schnabel pupils ( Clifford Curzon , Frank Glazer , Adrian Aeschbacher , and Victor Babin ) also sheds light on the master's pedagogical skills . About the Pro Arte's contribution << I >> am less happy . << I >> , for one , rather regret that Schnabel didn't collaborate with the Budapest Quartet , whose rugged , athletic playing was a good deal closer to this pianist's interpretative outlook than the style of the Belgian group . There is a break in continuity just before the fourth variation in the `` Forellen '' movement , and << I >> suspect that this is due to imperfect splicing between sides of the original Aj . Every detail in his interpretation has been beautifully thought out , and of these << I >> would especially cite the delicious laendler touch the pianist brings to the fifth variation ( an obvious indication that he is playing with Viennese musicians ) , and the gossamer shading throughout . Some of Curzon's playing strikes << me >> as finicky , however . But having lived with the disc for some time now , << I >> find the performance less exciting than either Schnabel's or Fleisher's ( whose superb performance with the Budapest Quartet has still to be recorded ) and a good deal less filled with humor than Curzon's . Returning once again to the Schnabel reissue , << I >> am beguiled anew by the magnificence of this pianist's musical penetration . ( Music often sounds best to << me >> when I can dress informally and sit in something more comfortable than a theatre seat . ( Music often sounds best to me when << I >> can dress informally and sit in something more comfortable than a theatre seat . For << me >> it has more of both elements than the majority of its competitors . So many times << I >> have wondered why veterinarians do not wipe the table clean before each new canine patient is placed on it for examination . << I >> wonder if anyone ever bothered to make the point that when it comes to boats and their motors , Americans excel over any country in the world in the long run . Torrid Adios ( Torrid-Adios Molly ) is not so masculine as most of the colts , but << I >> like his type and he certainly is one of the best-gaited pacers on the grounds . Blistered for curbs and laid off three weeks , he is coming along fine and looks like a pacer to << me >> . The first time << I >> saw the latter filly she trotted by me and I noticed such a family resemblance that I said to myself , `` that must be Hickory Ash '' . The first time I saw the latter filly she trotted by << me >> and I noticed such a family resemblance that I said to myself , `` that must be Hickory Ash '' . The first time I saw the latter filly she trotted by me and << I >> noticed such a family resemblance that I said to myself , `` that must be Hickory Ash '' . The first time I saw the latter filly she trotted by me and I noticed such a family resemblance that << I >> said to myself , `` that must be Hickory Ash '' . << I >> will be able to tell you more about this string of equines in the near future . << I >> have just seen Debonnie and Prompt Time work a mile in 2:34 , last quarter in :35.3 . For << me >> , a changed barrel length or an improved stock doesn't constitute a truly new design . At least five years ago , Tom Robinson of Marlin made up an over/under double rifle for << me >> in this caliber , using the now defunct Model 90 action in 20-gauge size . But even without jacketed bullets , << I >> had enough faith in my double to take it on an opening-day deer hunt that first year . Within half an hour << I >> jumped a six-point buck that hop-skipped through a rhododendron thicket , and I caught him just behind the left foreleg at 60 yards . Within half an hour I jumped a six-point buck that hop-skipped through a rhododendron thicket , and << I >> caught him just behind the left foreleg at 60 yards . << I >> tested it in my scoped S & W and it was good enough to allow me to hit a chuck with every shot at 100 yards if I did my part by holding the handgun steadily . I tested it in my scoped S & W and it was good enough to allow << me >> to hit a chuck with every shot at 100 yards if I did my part by holding the handgun steadily . I tested it in my scoped S & W and it was good enough to allow me to hit a chuck with every shot at 100 yards if << I >> did my part by holding the handgun steadily . It's extremely accurate for an auto , and the test rifle << I >> tried was completely trouble-free in functioning . Jet -- which << I >> coupled with the Deerstalker carbine as one of the year's two biggest developments -- few significant innovations appeared among 1961's handguns . << I >> started my tour of them at the Turkish Government Tourist Office , next to Pan American's office on the left as you enter the driveway that leads to the Hilton Hotel . Directly across from the Gardens << I >> found a bus stop sign for T 4 and rode it down to the Bosphorus , with the sports center on my left just before I reached the water and the entrance to Dolmabahce Palace immediately after that . Directly across from the Gardens I found a bus stop sign for T 4 and rode it down to the Bosphorus , with the sports center on my left just before << I >> reached the water and the entrance to Dolmabahce Palace immediately after that . Across the bridge on the left << I >> saw St. Sophia with its sturdy brown minarets and to the right of them the slenderer spires of the Blue Mosque . On the other side of the Golden Horn << I >> rode through Eminonu Square , with Yeni Cami , or the New Mosque , which dates from the Seventeenth Century , just across from the entrance to the bridge . << I >> got off there , crossed the street , walked ahead with St. Sophia on my left , the Blue Mosque on my right , and in a moment came to the entrance of St. Sophia . The eight green columns , << I >> learned , came from the Temple of Artemis at Ephesus , the others , red , from the Temple of the Sun at Heliopolis . Beneath the dome << I >> saw the spot where the Byzantine Emperors were crowned , a bit of floor protected now by a wooden fence . Outside St. Sophia << I >> walked through the flower garden in front of it , with the Blue Mosque ahead on my left . Across the street on my right << I >> saw the Hippodrome , now a park . Just before coming to the mosque entrance << I >> crossed the street , entered the Hippodrome , and walked ahead to the Obelisk of Theodosius , originally erected in Heliopolis in Egypt about 1,600 B.C. by Thutmose , who also built those now in New York , London and Rome at the Lateran . Beyond it << I >> noted a small green column , about twelve feet below the present ground level -- the Serpentine Column , three entwined serpents , which once stood at the Temple of Apollo at Delphi , Greece . Near the end of the Hippodrome << I >> came upon the Built Column , a truncated obelisk of blocks , all that remains of a monument that once rivalled the Colossus of Rhodes . Back at the Kaiser's Fountain , << I >> walked left to the streetcar stop and rode up the hill -- any car will do -- past the Column of Constantine , also known as the Burnt Column , at the top on my right . << I >> stayed on the car for a few minutes until , turning right , it entered a huge square , Bayezit , with the Bayezit Mosque on the right and the gate to the university just beyond it . There << I >> got off , crossed the square , and on the side directly opposite the gate found a good restaurant , hard to come by in this part of the city . After lunch , in the arcade on my left just before reaching the street << I >> found a pastry shop that sells some of the best baklava -- a sweet , flaky cake -- in Istanbul . Taking the streetcar back to Kaiser's Fountain , << I >> walked ahead , then left down the street opposite St. Sophia and just beyond the corner came to a small , one-story building with a red-tile roof , which is the entrance to the Sunken Palace . << I >> found it fairly depressing and emerged almost immediately . Just before reaching it << I >> came to a grey and brown stone building that looks somewhat like an Oriental pagoda , with Arabic lettering in gold and colored tile decorations -- the Fountain of Sultan Ahmet . Going through the Imperial Gate in the wall , << I >> entered the grounds of Topkapi Palace , home of the Sultans and nerve center of the vast Ottoman Empire , and walked along a road toward another gate in the distance , past the Church of St. Irene , completed by Constantine in 330 A.D. on my left , and then , just outside the second gate , I saw a spring with a tap in the wall on my right -- the Executioner's Spring , where he washed his hands and his sword after beheading his victims . Going through the Imperial Gate in the wall , I entered the grounds of Topkapi Palace , home of the Sultans and nerve center of the vast Ottoman Empire , and walked along a road toward another gate in the distance , past the Church of St. Irene , completed by Constantine in 330 A.D. on my left , and then , just outside the second gate , << I >> saw a spring with a tap in the wall on my right -- the Executioner's Spring , where he washed his hands and his sword after beheading his victims . Passing through the gate , with towers on either side once used as prisons , << I >> entered a huge square surrounded by buildings , and on the wall to my right found a general plan of the grounds , with explanations in English for each building . Following arrowed signs , << I >> veered right toward the former kitchens , complete with chimneys , which now house one of the world's greatest collections of Chinese porcelain and a fabulous array of silver dinner services . In the court once more , << I >> went right toward the Reception House , a long one-story building with a deep portico . Going through a door into another small court , << I >> had the Throne Room directly in front . Taking the path behind the Throne Room to the building directly beyond it , the Portrait Gallery , << I >> went right at the end of it , through a garden to a small building at the back -- a sitting room furnished with low blue divans , its floor covered with carpets , its ceiling painted with gold squares and floral designs . You only have to think of franks and sausages to know what << I >> mean . The aluminum , flush against the battens , acted as a fairing stick and enabled << me >> to plane the chines and keelson to the proper bevels easily . << I >> used a Homemaster Routo-Jig made by Porter Cable for this job . << I >> used bright red , mixing the pigment in thoroughly before adding the hardener . << I >> set it on the Gator trailer . For added strength , << I >> also fastened a small block on each side of every frame and batten joint . A head is a handy thing to have and << I >> installed one under a removable section of the port bunk . For padding the seats and bunks , << I >> used Ensolite , Type Aj . In this sequence << I >> shall write about them in the order of their erection . Your invitation to write about Serge Prokofieff to honor his 70th Anniversary for the April issue of Sovietskaya Muzyka is accepted with pleasure , because << I >> admire the music of Prokofieff ; ; << I >> myself was one of the skeptics ( 35 years ago ) . << I >> remember Ernest Bloch in the foyer , shouting in his high-pitched voice : `` it may be a tour de force , mais mon Dieu , can anyone take this music seriously '' ? ? << I >> think the answer is to be found in Prokofieff's own words : `` the clarity must be new , not old '' . More often than not << I >> have found easy excuse to leave my own work and stand at a respectable distance where I could watch this man transform raw nature into a composed , not imitative , painting . More often than not I have found easy excuse to leave my own work and stand at a respectable distance where << I >> could watch this man transform raw nature into a composed , not imitative , painting . What << I >> have observed time and time again is a process of integration , integration that begins as abstract design and gradually takes on recognizable form ; ; `` Of late years , << I >> find that I like best to work out-of-doors . `` Of late years , I find that << I >> like best to work out-of-doors . First << I >> make preliminary watercolor sketches in quarter scale ( approximately Af inches ) in which I pay particular attention to the design principles of three simple values -- the lightest light , the middle tone , and the darkest dark -- by reducing the forms of my subject to these large patterns . First I make preliminary watercolor sketches in quarter scale ( approximately Af inches ) in which << I >> pay particular attention to the design principles of three simple values -- the lightest light , the middle tone , and the darkest dark -- by reducing the forms of my subject to these large patterns . If a human figure or wild life are to be part of the projected final picture , << I >> try to place them in the initial sketch . `` << I >> am thoroughly convinced that most watercolors suffer because the artist expects nature will do his composing for him ; ; `` If << I >> have seemed to emphasize the structure of the composition , I mean to project equal concern for color . `` If I have seemed to emphasize the structure of the composition , << I >> mean to project equal concern for color . When this occurs , << I >> make the change on the sketch or on the final watercolor -- if I have been working on a full sheet in the field . When this occurs , I make the change on the sketch or on the final watercolor -- if << I >> have been working on a full sheet in the field . When this linear draft is completed , << I >> dust it down to a faint image . From this point , << I >> paint in as direct a manner as possible , by flowing on the washes with as pure a color mixture as I can manage . From this point , I paint in as direct a manner as possible , by flowing on the washes with as pure a color mixture as << I >> can manage . However , first << I >> thoughtfully study my sketch for improvement of color and design along the lines I have described . However , first I thoughtfully study my sketch for improvement of color and design along the lines << I >> have described . Then << I >> plan my attack : the parts I will finish first , the range of values , the accenting of minor details -- all in all , mechanics of producing the finished job with a maximum of crispness . Then I plan my attack : the parts << I >> will finish first , the range of values , the accenting of minor details -- all in all , mechanics of producing the finished job with a maximum of crispness . `` As for materials , << I >> use the best available . << I >> work on a watercolor easel in the field , and frequently resort to a large garden umbrella to protect my eyes from undue strain . In my studio << I >> work at a tilt-top table , but leave the paper unfixed so that I can move it freely to control the washes . In my studio I work at a tilt-top table , but leave the paper unfixed so that << I >> can move it freely to control the washes . After selecting a sheet and inspecting it for flaws ( even the best sometimes has foreign ' nubbins ' on its surface ) , << I >> sponge it thoroughly on both sides with clean , cold water . Then << I >> dry the sheet under mild pressure so that it will lie flat as a board . `` In addition to the usual tools , << I >> make constant use of cleansing tissue , not only to wipe my brushes , but to mop up certain areas , to soften edges , and to open up lights in dark washes . `` My brushes are different from those used by most watercolorists , for << I >> combine the sable and the bristle . When << I >> looked up the actual date of his birth and found it to be March 15th , I realized that Roy was born under the right zodiacal sign for a watercolorist : the water sign of Pisces ( February 18 thru March 20 ) . When I looked up the actual date of his birth and found it to be March 15th , << I >> realized that Roy was born under the right zodiacal sign for a watercolorist : the water sign of Pisces ( February 18 thru March 20 ) . << I >> lived in this onward-driving contest where each day overcame a new difficulty , gained a new truth , or banished a previous error '' . As everybody is curious to see the battery of glass tubes << I >> have invented , I have had quite a small one made here of four glass tubes ( in Copenhagen I used 30 ) and intend to carry it with me '' . As everybody is curious to see the battery of glass tubes I have invented , << I >> have had quite a small one made here of four glass tubes ( in Copenhagen I used 30 ) and intend to carry it with me '' . As everybody is curious to see the battery of glass tubes I have invented , I have had quite a small one made here of four glass tubes ( in Copenhagen << I >> used 30 ) and intend to carry it with me '' . As everybody is curious to see the battery of glass tubes I have invented , I have had quite a small one made here of four glass tubes ( in Copenhagen I used 30 ) and intend to carry it with << me >> '' . << I >> suppose it is because we are just not big enough . We have not yet succeeded in establishing recognition of technical specialization comparable to our higher levels of management , but << I >> believe we will trend in this direction but not to exceed vice-president '' . Just about the most enthralling real-life example of meeting cute is the Charles MacArthur-Helen Hayes saga : reputedly all he did was give her a handful of peanuts , but he said simultaneously , `` << I >> wish they were emeralds '' . Conclusions : The people involved ( and subsequent facts bear << me >> out here ) knew clearly the relative values of peanuts and emeralds , both monetary and sentimental . Immediately thereafter , the patient fractures her rehearsed story , veering into an oversoft , breathy , sloppily articulated , `` << I >> don't feel like talking right now '' . She says later , but still within the opening five minutes , `` << I >> keep thinking of a divorce but that's another emotional death '' . Stammering or repetition of << I >> , you , he , she , et cetera may signal ambiguity or uncertainty . On the other hand significant facts may be concealed -- she may mean << I >> or everybody , as it did with the tense and irritable woman mentioned before , may refer to a specific person . When someone says , for example , `` They took x-rays to see that there was nothing wrong with << me >> '' , it pays to consider how this statement would normally be made . << I >> have been loath to believe that any nation , even our present enemies , could or would be willing to loose upon mankind such terrible and inhumane weapons . This country has not used them , and << I >> hope that we never will be compelled to use them . << I >> state categorically that we shall under no circumstances resort to the use of such weapons unless they are first used by our enemies '' . You explain , `` << I >> have the strangest feeling of having lived through this very same event before . Rudyard Kipling's scorn for the `` jargon '' of psychical research was altered somewhat when he wondered `` how , or why , had << I >> been shown an unreleased roll of my life film '' ? ? << I >> recall the startling , vivid realism of a dream in which I lived through the horror of the bombing of a little Korean town . I recall the startling , vivid realism of a dream in which << I >> lived through the horror of the bombing of a little Korean town . << I >> am sure that nothing within me is capable of composing that life-like sequence , so complete in detail , from the hodge-podge of news pictures I have seen . I am sure that nothing within << me >> is capable of composing that life-like sequence , so complete in detail , from the hodge-podge of news pictures I have seen . I am sure that nothing within me is capable of composing that life-like sequence , so complete in detail , from the hodge-podge of news pictures << I >> have seen . Became `` Yes , the first half hour is tough , but by then I'm so numb << I >> don't notice it '' ! ! How did << I >> get to be sixty-five so fast ? ? What do << I >> do now '' ? ? What am << I >> going to do ? ? Where do << I >> go from here ? ? It seems to << me >> , the first thing you've got to do , to be happy , is to face up to your problems , no matter what they may be . One thing , << I >> am sure of , you must get an interest in life . Many of you will say , `` Well , what can << I >> do '' ? ? Believe << me >> ! ! << I >> , frankly , can't draw a straight line . When you see a needle in my hands you will know the family buttons have fallen off and << I >> have to sew them back on , or get out the safety pins . Not for << me >> , but perhaps just the thing for you . << I >> can look at furniture in one spot year in and year out and really feel for sure that's where it belongs . Ever since << I >> was a child , I have always had a yen to try my hand at writing . Ever since I was a child , << I >> have always had a yen to try my hand at writing . Few new writers have their first story accepted , so they tell << me >> . << I >> can hear some of you folks protesting . << I >> haven't got that kind of money '' . As for << me >> , I am holding in reserve two huge puzzles ( I love puzzles ) to put together when time hangs heavy on my hands . As for me , << I >> am holding in reserve two huge puzzles ( I love puzzles ) to put together when time hangs heavy on my hands . As for me , I am holding in reserve two huge puzzles ( << I >> love puzzles ) to put together when time hangs heavy on my hands . << I >> just don't have time to do half the things I want to do now . I just don't have time to do half the things << I >> want to do now . So in closing , fellow retired members , << I >> advise you to make the most of each day , enjoy each one to the n'th degree . << I >> never gave that boy a cent . << I >> am not a prostitute , and I had only one very wealthy boy friend '' , she said . I am not a prostitute , and << I >> had only one very wealthy boy friend '' , she said . After a few minutes he said , `` << I >> can't use you if you dance like that . `` << I >> think that maybe she wanted it this way '' , a vice squad cop said . << I >> am a carpet salesman . << I >> work for one of the biggest chains of retail carpet houses in the East . From where << I >> sit it looks more like a nightmare . People come to << me >> with confidence . `` You didn't tell << me >> I had cancer '' . `` You didn't tell me << I >> had cancer '' . `` Neither << me >> nor my wife were helped by that chiropractor's treatments '' . If he is not told which of four or five readings was meant for him , he can more readily assess each item in a larger frame : `` Does that statement really sound as if it were for << me >> , significant in my particular life ? ? `` << I >> feel cold '' , the medium says , or `` My leg aches '' , `` My head is heavy '' . Simply using it increases its intensity , << I >> was told by one sensitive . One wrote : `` ( << I >> am so hungry ) I could eat a rider off his horse & snap at the stirups '' . One wrote : `` ( I am so hungry ) << I >> could eat a rider off his horse & snap at the stirups '' . After he had been away from home about a year he wrote : `` ( dear Wife ) if << I >> did not write and receive letters from you I believe that I would forgit that I was married . After he had been away from home about a year he wrote : `` ( dear Wife ) if I did not write and receive letters from you << I >> believe that I would forgit that I was married . After he had been away from home about a year he wrote : `` ( dear Wife ) if I did not write and receive letters from you I believe that << I >> would forgit that I was married . After he had been away from home about a year he wrote : `` ( dear Wife ) if I did not write and receive letters from you I believe that I would forgit that << I >> was married . << I >> don't feel much like a maryed man but I never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if I should you must forgive me as I am so forgitful '' . I don't feel much like a maryed man but << I >> never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if I should you must forgive me as I am so forgitful '' . I don't feel much like a maryed man but I never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if << I >> should you must forgive me as I am so forgitful '' . I don't feel much like a maryed man but I never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if I should you must forgive << me >> as I am so forgitful '' . I don't feel much like a maryed man but I never forgit it sofar as to court enny other lady but if I should you must forgive me as << I >> am so forgitful '' . A Yank , disturbed by his increasing corpulence , wrote : `` << I >> am growing so fat I am a burden 2 myself '' . A Yank , disturbed by his increasing corpulence , wrote : `` I am growing so fat << I >> am a burden 2 myself '' . if they should bite before << I >> wake , I pray the Lord their jaws to break '' . if they should bite before I wake , << I >> pray the Lord their jaws to break '' . `` << I >> expect to be tough as a knott as soon as I get over the Georgia Shitts '' . `` I expect to be tough as a knott as soon as << I >> get over the Georgia Shitts '' . A Georgia soldier gave his wife the following description of the cause and consequence of diarrhoea : `` << I >> have bin a little sick with diorah two or three days . << I >> eat too much eggs and poark . A Michigan soldier wrote his brother : `` << I >> am well at present with the exception I have got the Dyerear and I hope thease few lines find you the same '' . A Michigan soldier wrote his brother : `` I am well at present with the exception << I >> have got the Dyerear and I hope thease few lines find you the same '' . A Michigan soldier wrote his brother : `` I am well at present with the exception I have got the Dyerear and << I >> hope thease few lines find you the same '' . A Yank writing from Vicksburg , May 28 , 1863 , stated : `` not less than 50 balls have passed over << me >> since I commenced writing . A Yank writing from Vicksburg , May 28 , 1863 , stated : `` not less than 50 balls have passed over me since << I >> commenced writing . << I >> could tell you of plenty narrow escapes , but we take no notice of them now '' . Just count each blot a dodge and add in a few for << I >> don't dodge every time '' . Another Reb writing under similar circumstances before Atlanta reported : `` the Yankees keep shooting so << I >> am afraid they will knock over my ink , so I will close '' . Another Reb writing under similar circumstances before Atlanta reported : `` the Yankees keep shooting so I am afraid they will knock over my ink , so << I >> will close '' . An Alabama soldier whose feminine associations were of the more admirable type wrote boastfully of his achievements among the Virginia belles : `` they thout << I >> was a saint . << I >> would tell them I got a letter from home stating that five of my Negroes had runaway and ten of Pappy's . I would tell them << I >> got a letter from home stating that five of my Negroes had runaway and ten of Pappy's . But << I >> wold say I recond he did not mind it for he had a plenty more left and then they would lean to me like a sore eyd kitten to a basin of milk '' . But I wold say << I >> recond he did not mind it for he had a plenty more left and then they would lean to me like a sore eyd kitten to a basin of milk '' . But I wold say I recond he did not mind it for he had a plenty more left and then they would lean to << me >> like a sore eyd kitten to a basin of milk '' . << I >> think you made a dam good chouise to turn off as nise a feler as Alf Dyer and let that orney thefin , drunkard , damed card playing sun of a bich com to sea you , the god damed theaf and lop yeard pigen tode helion , he is too orney for hel . << I >> will shute him as shore as I sea him '' . I will shute him as shore as << I >> sea him '' . On December 9 , 1862 , Sergeant Edwin H. Fay , an unusual Louisianan who held A.B. and M.A. degrees from Harvard University and who before the war was headmaster of a private school for boys in Louisiana , wrote his wife : `` << I >> saw Pemberton and he is the most insignificant puke I ever saw . On December 9 , 1862 , Sergeant Edwin H. Fay , an unusual Louisianan who held A.B. and M.A. degrees from Harvard University and who before the war was headmaster of a private school for boys in Louisiana , wrote his wife : `` I saw Pemberton and he is the most insignificant puke << I >> ever saw . Private George Gray Hunter of Pennsylvania wrote : `` << I >> am well convinced in my own mind that had it not been for officers this war would have ended long ago '' . Another Yankee became so disgusted as to state : `` << I >> wish to God one half of our officers were knocked in the head by slinging them against ( the other half ) '' . << I >> insisted on takeing the field and prevailed -- thinking that I had better die by rebel bullets than ( by ) Union quackery '' . I insisted on takeing the field and prevailed -- thinking that << I >> had better die by rebel bullets than ( by ) Union quackery '' . A Pennsylvania soldier wrote that `` they were the hardest looking set of men that ever << I >> saw . '' Private Jenkins Lloyd Jones of the Wisconsin Light Artillery wrote in his diary : `` << I >> strolled among the Alabamans on the right , found some of the greenest specimens of humanity I think in the universe , their ignorance being little less than the slave they despise with as imperfect a dialect . '' Private Jenkins Lloyd Jones of the Wisconsin Light Artillery wrote in his diary : `` I strolled among the Alabamans on the right , found some of the greenest specimens of humanity << I >> think in the universe , their ignorance being little less than the slave they despise with as imperfect a dialect . In a similar vein , but writing from the opposite side , Thomas Taylor , a private in the 6th Alabama Volunteers , in a letter to his wife , stated : `` you know that my heart is with you but << I >> never could have been satisfied to have staid at home when my country is invaded by a thievin foe , by a set of cowardly skunks whose motto is Booty . He was also personally active in ward politics , and by 1924 O'Banion had acquired sufficient political might to be able to state : `` << I >> always deliver my borough as per requirements '' . `` But when << I >> arrived and recognised a number of notorious characters I had thrown into the detective bureau basement half a dozen times , I knew I had been framed , and withdrew almost at once '' . `` But when I arrived and recognised a number of notorious characters << I >> had thrown into the detective bureau basement half a dozen times , I knew I had been framed , and withdrew almost at once '' . `` But when I arrived and recognised a number of notorious characters I had thrown into the detective bureau basement half a dozen times , << I >> knew I had been framed , and withdrew almost at once '' . `` But when I arrived and recognised a number of notorious characters I had thrown into the detective bureau basement half a dozen times , I knew << I >> had been framed , and withdrew almost at once '' . Why , << I >> can get them knocked off for half that much '' . But in the meantime the beer-runner , unhappy with this solution , telephoned Torrio and returned to O'Banion with the message : `` Say , Dionie , << I >> just been talking to Johnny , and he said to let them cops have the three hundred . `` Follow << me >> '' . << I >> do not mean to suggest that these assumptions are self-evident , in the sense that everyone agrees with them . << I >> do mean , however , that I take them for granted , and that everything I shall be saying would appear quite idiotic against any contrary assumptions . I do mean , however , that << I >> take them for granted , and that everything I shall be saying would appear quite idiotic against any contrary assumptions . I do mean , however , that I take them for granted , and that everything << I >> shall be saying would appear quite idiotic against any contrary assumptions . << I >> speak of `` the largest possible measure '' because any person who supposes that these conditions can be universally and perfectly achieved -- ever -- reckons without the inherent imperfectability of himself and his fellow human beings , and is therefore a dangerous man to have around . << I >> submit that this is the key problem of international relations , that it always has been , that it always will be . In the recent political campaign two charges were leveled affecting the question of power , and << I >> think we might begin by trying to put them into proper focus . You may have misgivings about certain aspects of our military establishment -- << I >> certainly do -- but you know any comparison of over-all American strength with over-all Soviet strength finds the United States not only superior , but so superior both in present weapons and in the development of new ones that our advantage promises to be a permanent feature of U.S.-Soviet relations for the foreseeable future . << I >> have often searched for a graphic way of impressing our superiority on those Americans who have doubts , and I think Mr. Jameson Campaigne has done it well in his new book American Might And Soviet Myth . I have often searched for a graphic way of impressing our superiority on those Americans who have doubts , and << I >> think Mr. Jameson Campaigne has done it well in his new book American Might And Soviet Myth . This ignorant estimate , << I >> repeat , is not of any interest in itself ; ; Here << I >> do not speak of military power where our advantage is obvious and overwhelming but of political power -- of influence , if you will -- about which the relevant questions are : Is Soviet influence throughout the world greater or less than it was ten years ago ? ? The first rattle of the machine guns , at 7:10 in the evening , roused around << me >> the varied voices and faces of fear . The middle-aged man said over and over , `` Why did << I >> come here , why did I come here '' . The middle-aged man said over and over , `` Why did I come here , why did << I >> come here '' . Amid the crackle of small arms and automatic weapons , << I >> heard the thumping of mortars . Where should << I >> go ? ? `` Let's play hero '' , << I >> said . But everyone << I >> met had sought cover first and asked questions later . << I >> saw holes in planes at the airport and in cars in the streets . We talked after << I >> hailed his Jeep marked with the U.N. flag . In Keng Kok , the City of Silkworms , the Prime Minister bought fried chickens and fried cicadas , and two notebooks for << me >> . << I >> was careful to keep my feet , the seat of the least worthy spirits , from pointing at anyone's head , where the worthiest spirits reside . John said : `` << I >> have some antiseptic salve with me , but it's too late for that '' . John said : `` I have some antiseptic salve with << me >> , but it's too late for that '' . When << I >> pressed for a purely religious definition , I encountered the familiar blend of liberal piety , interfaith good will , and a small residue of ethnic loyalty . When I pressed for a purely religious definition , << I >> encountered the familiar blend of liberal piety , interfaith good will , and a small residue of ethnic loyalty . `` << I >> like to follow the holidays when they come along . As << I >> see it , there's no real difference between being Jewish , Catholic , or Protestant '' . Nevertheless , most of the teen-agers << I >> interviewed believed in maintaining their Jewish identity and even envisioned joining a synagogue or temple . `` << I >> want to show respect for my parents' religion '' was the way in which a boy justified his inhabiting a halfway house of Judaism . Most of the teen-agers << I >> interviewed rejected it on pragmatic grounds . It is significant , too , that the older teen-agers << I >> interviewed believed , unlike the younger ones , that Jewish students tend to do better academically than their gentile counterparts . Of course , << I >> would like to go to an out-of-town school where there are all kinds of people , but I would want lots of Jewish kids there '' . Of course , I would like to go to an out-of-town school where there are all kinds of people , but << I >> would want lots of Jewish kids there '' . It's so much trouble , << I >> don't usually bother '' . at least << I >> have only one remedy for anything of this kind in my collection , one for hastening delayed menstruation . Many people agreed that burns should be treated with bland oily salves or unsalted butter or lard , but one informant told << me >> that a burn should be bathed in salt water ; ; My lawyer told << me >> that his mother used a similar remedy for cuts and wounds ; ; He showed << me >> one of his fingers which had been practically amputated and which his mother had treated ; ; One old man told << me >> that when he was a boy he was kicked in the head by a fractious mule and had his scalp laid back from the entire front of his head . A German informant gave << me >> a sure cure made by combining rye flour and molasses into a poultice . One young girl told << me >> how her mother removed a wart from her finger by soaking a copper penny in vinegar for three days and then painting the finger with the liquid several times . << I >> know this worked . One person recommended to << me >> washing the wart with sulphur water ; ; Leg cramps , one person tells << me >> , were relieved by standing barefoot with the weight of the body on the heel and pressing down hard . `` << I >> considered that your views would be best carried out '' , he explained , `` by taking women whose progeny will of course be free & more fully extend the philantrophy of Emancipation . In New York , Lydia Maria Child welcomed him enthusiastically : `` << I >> have lately heard of you from the Legislature of Louisiana , and felt joy at your public recognition of the brotherhood of man '' . Instead of the expected `` annoyances '' due to the nature of his mission , he received many calling cards and invitations from `` gentlemen of mark , on whom << I >> had no sort of claim , & have had many more invitations than I could accept '' . Instead of the expected `` annoyances '' due to the nature of his mission , he received many calling cards and invitations from `` gentlemen of mark , on whom I had no sort of claim , & have had many more invitations than << I >> could accept '' . ( `` It is always of sorrow to << me >> when I find people who neither know nor understand music '' , he declared not long ago in proposing that White House prizes be awarded for music and art . ( `` It is always of sorrow to me when << I >> find people who neither know nor understand music '' , he declared not long ago in proposing that White House prizes be awarded for music and art . Morse testified that while he was having breakfast in the dining room , Mrs. Borden told the servant , `` Bridget , << I >> want you to wash these windows today '' . She replied , `` << I >> know of one man that has not been friendly with him . When << I >> interviewed Kirby , who as a boy picked up pears in the Borden yard , I asked if anybody else in the household besides Lizzie and Morse had been under any suspicion at the time of the murders . When I interviewed Kirby , who as a boy picked up pears in the Borden yard , << I >> asked if anybody else in the household besides Lizzie and Morse had been under any suspicion at the time of the murders . << I >> inquired . << I >> have previously described how , during the week of the murder , Bridget spent the first few hot days scrubbing and ironing clothes . Do you think << I >> might profitably study some of the history you do , perhaps two weeks behind you . Many years later ( on August 3 , 1915 ) , Lucy Upton wrote Winslow's daughter soon to be graduated from Smith College : `` While << I >> love botany which , after dabbling in for years , I studied according to the methods of that day exactly forty years ago in a summer school , it must be fascinating to take up zoology in the way you are doing . Many years later ( on August 3 , 1915 ) , Lucy Upton wrote Winslow's daughter soon to be graduated from Smith College : `` While I love botany which , after dabbling in for years , << I >> studied according to the methods of that day exactly forty years ago in a summer school , it must be fascinating to take up zoology in the way you are doing . She read Maitland's Dark Ages , `` which << I >> enjoyed very much '' ; ; When Dr. Wallace Buttrick , wise in his judgment of people , declined to have the Science Building named for him , he wrote Miss Tapley ( April 7 , 1923 ) `` If you had asked << me >> , I think I would have suggested that you name the building for Miss Upton . When Dr. Wallace Buttrick , wise in his judgment of people , declined to have the Science Building named for him , he wrote Miss Tapley ( April 7 , 1923 ) `` If you had asked me , << I >> think I would have suggested that you name the building for Miss Upton . When Dr. Wallace Buttrick , wise in his judgment of people , declined to have the Science Building named for him , he wrote Miss Tapley ( April 7 , 1923 ) `` If you had asked me , I think << I >> would have suggested that you name the building for Miss Upton . Her services to the School for many years were of a very high character , and << I >> have often thought that one of the buildings should be named for her '' . << I >> make no attempt to measure the enduring satisfaction and material well-being of a man who went to work on graduation from high school and was highly successful in the business which he entered . Quite the contrary , as << I >> can testify from personal experience as a former university president . << I >> intend to include under the term all the practical courses open to boys and girls . One has to talk confidentially with some of the directors of vocational high schools to realize that a boy cannot just say , `` << I >> want to be a plumber '' , and then , by doing good work , find a job . Two stories will illustrate what << I >> have in mind . In a far distant part of the United States , << I >> was talking to an instructor about a boy who in the twelfth grade was doing special work . << I >> asked . `` He'll have no difficulty '' , << I >> was told . << I >> discovered in the course of a visit there that almost all the pupils were Negroes . `` That's the Colonel '' , he said , `` But << I >> can't see the dogs '' . Why she doesn't charge him , << I >> don't know . She was standing on a flat rock three feet above ground and when she saw him she rose to full height and roared , opening her mouth wide , lashing her tail , and stamping at the rock with both forefeet in irritation , as much as to say : `` How dare you disturb << me >> in my sacred precinct '' ? ? `` Why , no , ma'am '' , he replied , `` this church belongs to << me >> '' ! ! As long as the bar prefers to adduce evidence by written deposition , rather than viva voce before an authoritative judicial officer , << I >> fear that the antiquated rules will remain unchanged , and expensive prolixity remain the best known characteristic of Equity '' . `` << I >> am satisfied that in the Selden case had this power existed and this course ( been ) pursued , it would have shortened the depositions of some of the experts nearly one-half and of some of the other witnesses thereto more than that '' . One manufacturer who held an allegedly basic patent said : `` << I >> would readily put over $50,000 into the manufacture of the device , but it is so easy to make that we would enter immediately into a prolonged ordeal of patent litigation which would eat up all our profits '' . << I >> once tried to describe to a very well-known American intellectual the conditions among Negroes in the South . and he asked << me >> in perfect innocence , `` Why don't all the Negroes in the South move North '' ? ? << I >> tried to explain what has happened , unfailingly , whenever a significant body of Negroes move North . This is precisely what happened when the Puerto Ricans arrived in their thousands -- and the bitterness thus caused is , as << I >> write , being fought out all up and down those streets . << I >> know Negroes who prefer the South and white Southerners , because `` At least there , you haven't got to play any guessing games '' ! ! << I >> know another Negro , a man very dear to me , who says , with conviction and with truth , `` The spirit of the South is the spirit of America '' . I know another Negro , a man very dear to << me >> , who says , with conviction and with truth , `` The spirit of the South is the spirit of America '' . He did not , as far as << I >> can gather , find the South `` worse '' ; ; << I >> had intended to be there myself . << I >> was curious about the impact of this political assassination on Negroes in Harlem , for Lumumba had -- has -- captured the popular imagination there . << I >> was curious to know if Lumumba's death , which is surely among the most sinister of recent events , would elicit from `` our '' side anything more than the usual , well-meaning rhetoric . Had << I >> been there , I , too , in the eyes of most Americans , would have been merely a pawn in the hands of the Communists . Had I been there , << I >> , too , in the eyes of most Americans , would have been merely a pawn in the hands of the Communists . << I >> find this view amazing . The first question is : Would << I >> like to live here ? ? Unless one takes refuge in the theory -- however disguised -- that Negroes are , somehow , different from white people , << I >> do not see how one can escape the conclusion that the Negro's status in this country is not only a cruel injustice but a grave national liability . Now , << I >> do not doubt that , among the people at the U.N. that day , there were Stalinist and professional revolutionists acting out of the most cynical motives . What << I >> find appalling -- and really dangerous -- is the American assumption that the Negro is so contented with his lot here that only the cynical agents of a foreign power can rouse him to protest . And that Menshikov replied : `` Just call << me >> Mike '' . `` This is where << I >> get my information from '' , he confided . The next day << I >> visited International Christian College which has developed since the war under the leadership of people who were interned and who know Japan well . In the afternoon Miss Hosaka and her mother invited << me >> to go with them and young Mrs. Kodama to see the famous Spring dances of the Geisha dancers . The dances were as beautiful as anything << I >> have ever seen -- they rival the New York Rockettes for scenery and precision as well as imagination . Because Don was leaving the next day , << I >> spent the evening with him at Asia Center . The following morning Mr. Morikawa called for << me >> , and we went to visit schools -- kindergarten , middle-school , elementary school , and high school -- Mr. Yoshimoto's school . There is much more freedom in the schools here than << I >> expected -- some think too much . << I >> was told that it is quite likely that Japanese soldiers would not fight again -- for why should they ? ? They suggested several new foods , and usually << I >> found them good , except the sweets , which I think I could learn to like . They suggested several new foods , and usually I found them good , except the sweets , which << I >> think I could learn to like . They suggested several new foods , and usually I found them good , except the sweets , which I think << I >> could learn to like . After a day at Nikko , Mrs. Kodama put << me >> on the train for Kyoto . My instructions were that Mr. Nishimo would meet << me >> at the hotel , but instead he and three others were at the station with a very warm welcome . They understood and teased << me >> a bit about it . << I >> think I would have been much disappointed in Japan if I had not seen Kyoto , Nara , and Hiroshima . I think << I >> would have been much disappointed in Japan if I had not seen Kyoto , Nara , and Hiroshima . I think I would have been much disappointed in Japan if << I >> had not seen Kyoto , Nara , and Hiroshima . << I >> arrived at 7:00 a.m. and by 9:00 a.m. I had finished breakfast and was on my way to see what they had planned . I arrived at 7:00 a.m. and by 9:00 a.m. << I >> had finished breakfast and was on my way to see what they had planned . We visited the Okamoto home -- where for the first time << I >> saw the famous tea ceremony . After a supper of unagi ( rice with eel -- eel which is raised in an ice-cold pond at the foot of Mt. Fuji ) , << I >> returned to my beautiful room to sleep as hard as possible to be ready for another busy day . << I >> was amazed at the very poor hospital facilities accompanying the medical school . They apologized for the condition , including dirt and flies , and << I >> was a little at a loss to know what to say . << I >> don't have the answer yet . We had tea at Mr. Washizu's home where << I >> learned that he , too , comes from a very wealthy family . He had displayed more of them than usual so that << I >> could enjoy them . Mr. Nishima went with << me >> on the train to Nara . In Nara << I >> stayed at the hotel where the Prince and Princess had stayed on their honeymoon . A new red carpet had been laid for their coming , but << I >> walked on it , too . In the evening both of the men went with << me >> on the train 30 miles to Osaka to put me on the train for Hiroshima . In the evening both of the men went with me on the train 30 miles to Osaka to put << me >> on the train for Hiroshima . Again the plan was for << me >> to go alone , but they wouldn't let me . Again the plan was for me to go alone , but they wouldn't let << me >> . At Osaka , Mr. Yoneda had to leave us to get the train to his home , but Mr. Nishima and << I >> had an hour and a half before train time to see Osaka at night . One spot in Osaka << I >> shall always remember -- the bridge where we stood to watch the reflections of the elaborate neon signs in the still waters of the river . << I >> had planned to go to the hotel by taxi and sleep a little , after which Mr. Uno would arrive and pilot me around . I had planned to go to the hotel by taxi and sleep a little , after which Mr. Uno would arrive and pilot << me >> around . << I >> know now why the students insisted that I go to Hiroshima even when I told them I didn't want to . I know now why the students insisted that << I >> go to Hiroshima even when I told them I didn't want to . I know now why the students insisted that I go to Hiroshima even when << I >> told them I didn't want to . I know now why the students insisted that I go to Hiroshima even when I told them << I >> didn't want to . They knew that << I >> was still grieving over the tragic event , and they felt that if I could see the recovery and the spirit of the people , who hold no grudge , but who also regret Pearl Harbor , I would be happier and would understand better a new Japan . They knew that I was still grieving over the tragic event , and they felt that if << I >> could see the recovery and the spirit of the people , who hold no grudge , but who also regret Pearl Harbor , I would be happier and would understand better a new Japan . They knew that I was still grieving over the tragic event , and they felt that if I could see the recovery and the spirit of the people , who hold no grudge , but who also regret Pearl Harbor , << I >> would be happier and would understand better a new Japan . The teachers of Mr. Uno's school gave << me >> a small gift to thank me for coming . The teachers of Mr. Uno's school gave me a small gift to thank << me >> for coming . << I >> was grateful for their insight into my need for this experience . << I >> am told the time will soon come when women will find it necessary to do most of their own work , and even now it is important to have conveniences for the use of servants . As far as << I >> am concerned there is continuous piling up of evidence that the creative fresh ideas which are needed in the world are going to be found by educated women unafraid to break traditions . Here again it was vacation time and there were many things << I >> could not see , but I was able to visit with a professor who is famous in Japanese circles and be guided through the grounds by his assistant . Here again it was vacation time and there were many things I could not see , but << I >> was able to visit with a professor who is famous in Japanese circles and be guided through the grounds by his assistant . It is these other differences between North and South -- other , that is , than those which concern discrimination or social welfare -- which << I >> chiefly discuss herein . << I >> write about Northern liberals from considerable personal experience . A Southerner married to a New Englander , << I >> have lived for many years in a Connecticut commuting town with a high percentage of artists , writers , publicity men , and business executives of egghead tastes . When << I >> question them as to what they mean by concepts like liberty and democracy , I find that they fall into two categories : the simpler ones who have simply accepted the shibboleths of their faith without analysis ; ; When I question them as to what they mean by concepts like liberty and democracy , << I >> find that they fall into two categories : the simpler ones who have simply accepted the shibboleths of their faith without analysis ; ; << I >> am naive , they say , to make use of such words . << I >> am concerned here , however , with the Northern liberal's attitude toward the South . Time's editor , Thomas Griffith , in his book , The Waist-High Culture , wrote : `` most of what was different about it ( the Deep South ) << I >> found myself unsympathetic to . '' This , for the liberals << I >> know , would be an understatement . But in our case -- and neither my wife nor << I >> have extreme views on integration , nor are we given to emotional outbursts -- the situation has ruined one or two valued friendships and come close to wrecking several more . << I >> never heard of a poll being taken on the question . Prior to 1954 << I >> imagine that a majority of Southerners would have voted against the Confederacy . And therein , << I >> feel , many Northerners delude themselves about the South . << I >> suppose the reason is a kind of wishful thinking : don't talk about the final stages of Reconstruction and they will take care of themselves . and << I >> have heard many say that they are content to earn a half or a third as much as they could up North because they so much prefer the quieter habits of their home town . << I >> have just asked these questions in the Pentagon , in the White House , in offices of key scientists across the country and aboard the submarines that prowl for months underwater , with neat rows of green launch tubes which contain Polaris missiles and which are affectionately known as `` Sherwood Forest '' . Yet implicit in each movement was the death of millions , perhaps hundreds of millions , perhaps you and << me >> -- and the experts . Officers who participate in the continual practice drills assured << me >> that the President's decision could be made and announced on the gold circuit within minutes after the first flash from Aj . << I >> asked Wisman what would happen if he broke out the go codes and tried to start transmitting one . They saw it before << I >> did , even with my binoculars . << I >> followed them in the jeep and now they did not care . Sometimes << I >> guessed it was because the rain squall had changed direction . The aborigine lives on the cruelest land << I >> have ever seen . << I >> do not know if such a way of life can come to be a self-conscious challenge , but I suspect that it can . I do not know if such a way of life can come to be a self-conscious challenge , but << I >> suspect that it can . << I >> persuaded an Australian friend who had lived `` outback '' for years to take me to see some aborigines living in the bush . I persuaded an Australian friend who had lived `` outback '' for years to take << me >> to see some aborigines living in the bush . It took << me >> a moment to realize what was odd about that panel : there was a gimbaled compass welded to it , which rocked gently back and forth as the Land Rover bounced about . << I >> asked . `` Once << I >> get out on the flat I do . `` Once I get out on the flat << I >> do . << I >> would try to memorize landmarks and saw in a half-hour that it was hopeless . It struck << me >> as a very bright and very malnourished dog . `` << I >> suppose because it saves them some loss of body water . There was something about his face that disturbed << me >> and it took several seconds to realize what . The Australian and << I >> both were wearing insect repellent and were not badly bothered by insects , but my eyes watered as we stood watching the aborigine . << I >> turned to look at the lubra . The two children , both boys , wandered around the Australian and << me >> for a few moments and then returned to their work . In spots such as the elbows and knees the second skin is worn off and << I >> realized the aborigines were much darker than they appeared ; ; The stink is all the same to << me >> , but I really think they can make one another out blindfolded '' . The stink is all the same to me , but << I >> really think they can make one another out blindfolded '' . << I >> should like , by the way , to make it clear that I am not using the word `` Persians '' carelessly . I should like , by the way , to make it clear that << I >> am not using the word `` Persians '' carelessly . A few months ago it was a fairly typical landlord who in the dead of night lugged << me >> up a mountainside to drink from a spring famous in the neighborhood for its clarity and flavor . << I >> really didn't know what he meant . His London contract was rescinded , and now , he explains cheerfully , as a bright smile lightens his intense , mobile face , `` << I >> conduct only one hundred and twenty concerts '' ! ! `` By observing the conductor '' , he says with a twinkle in his eyes , `` << I >> learned how not to conduct '' . << I >> consider it the center of the world and make it a point to be there once a year '' . `` Then << I >> return to the United States for engagements at the Hollywood Bowl and in Philadelphia '' , he added . Of course , << I >> shall conduct Mahler and Bruckner works in the coming season , as usual . `` Now that Bruno Walter is virtually in retirement and my dear friend Dimitri Mitropoulos is no longer with us , << I >> am probably the only one -- with the possible exception of Leonard Bernstein -- who has this special affinity for and champions the works of Bruckner and Mahler '' . But << I >> usually stick to the old phrase : ' Ich habe ein Amt , aber keine Meinung ( I hold an office , but I do not feel entitled to have an opinion ) . But I usually stick to the old phrase : ' Ich habe ein Amt , aber keine Meinung ( << I >> hold an office , but I do not feel entitled to have an opinion ) . But I usually stick to the old phrase : ' Ich habe ein Amt , aber keine Meinung ( I hold an office , but << I >> do not feel entitled to have an opinion ) . << I >> consider it to be my job to expose the public to what is being written today '' . << I >> was chairman , the only not youthful participant . << I >> was far from convinced of the truth of my statement , but could not think of anything that might evoke responses more quickly . When << I >> mentioned that for my first long voyage I did not even have the money for the return fare , but had trusted to luck that I would earn a sufficient amount , the young people looked at me doubtingly . When I mentioned that for my first long voyage << I >> did not even have the money for the return fare , but had trusted to luck that I would earn a sufficient amount , the young people looked at me doubtingly . When I mentioned that for my first long voyage I did not even have the money for the return fare , but had trusted to luck that << I >> would earn a sufficient amount , the young people looked at me doubtingly . When I mentioned that for my first long voyage I did not even have the money for the return fare , but had trusted to luck that I would earn a sufficient amount , the young people looked at << me >> doubtingly . << I >> think it is rather foolhardy to trust to luck '' . Others mentioned that << I >> might have had to ask friends or even strangers for help and that to be stranded in a foreign country without sufficient funds did not contribute to international understanding . The debate needed no additional controversy and soon << I >> could ask each individually what he expected from life , what his hopes were and what his fears . In taking account of seventeen years of law practice , Adams concluded that `` no lawyer in America ever did so much business as << I >> did '' and `` for so little profit '' . `` If you can conveniently let << me >> have twenty dollars '' , he wrote one friend in 1791 when he was Secretary of the Treasury . `` << I >> have just come from viewing a man who had made the fortune of his country , but now is working all night in order to support his family '' , he reflected . `` As an independent American << I >> considered all who were not for us , and you amongst the rest , as against us , yet be assured that John Jay never ceased to be the friend of Peter Van Schaack '' . The latter in turn assured him that `` were << I >> arraigned at the bar , and you my judge , I should expect to stand or fall only by the merits of my cause '' . The latter in turn assured him that `` were I arraigned at the bar , and you my judge , << I >> should expect to stand or fall only by the merits of my cause '' . His first inaugural address speaks of `` my country whose voice << I >> can never hear but with veneration and love '' . The design is determined emotionally : `` << I >> must reach into myself for the spring that will send me catapulting recklessly into the chaos of event with which the dance confronts me '' . The design is determined emotionally : `` I must reach into myself for the spring that will send << me >> catapulting recklessly into the chaos of event with which the dance confronts me '' . The design is determined emotionally : `` I must reach into myself for the spring that will send me catapulting recklessly into the chaos of event with which the dance confronts << me >> '' . But << I >> would never have thought of it myself '' . << I >> think it is essential , however , to pinpoint here the difference between the two concepts of sovereignty that went to war in 1861 -- if only to see better how imperative is our need today to clarify completely our far worse confusion on this subject . When it comes to this , << I >> shall prefer emigrating to some country where they make no pretence of loving liberty -- to Russia , for instance , where despotism can be taken pure , without the base alloy of hypocrisy '' ( His emphasis ) << I >> want , therefore , to discuss a second and quite different fruit of science , the connection between scientific understanding and fear . << I >> am certainly not adequately trained to describe or enlarge on human fears , but there are certain features of the fears dispelled by scientific explanations that stand out quite clearly . << I >> think that we are here also talking of the kind of fear that a young boy has for a group of boys who are approaching at night along the streets of a large city . When confronted with a drunk or an insane person << I >> have no notion of what any one of them might do to me or to himself or to others . When confronted with a drunk or an insane person I have no notion of what any one of them might do to << me >> or to himself or to others . << I >> believe that what I do has some effect on his actions and I have learned , in a way , to commune with drunks , but certainly my actions seem to resemble more nearly the performance of a rain dance than the carrying out of an experiment in physics . I believe that what << I >> do has some effect on his actions and I have learned , in a way , to commune with drunks , but certainly my actions seem to resemble more nearly the performance of a rain dance than the carrying out of an experiment in physics . I believe that what I do has some effect on his actions and << I >> have learned , in a way , to commune with drunks , but certainly my actions seem to resemble more nearly the performance of a rain dance than the carrying out of an experiment in physics . << I >> am usually filled with an uneasiness that through some unwitting slip all hell may break loose . The persistent horror of having a malformed child has , << I >> believe , been reduced , not because we have gained any control over this misfortune , but precisely because we have learned that we have so little control over it . The fear of disease was formerly very much the kind of fear << I >> have tried to describe . His letter had suggested we meet at my hotel at noon on Sunday , and << I >> came into the lobby as the clock struck twelve . But to << me >> Beckett's writing had seemed permeated with love for human beings and with a kind of humor that I could reconcile neither with despair nor with nihilism . But to me Beckett's writing had seemed permeated with love for human beings and with a kind of humor that << I >> could reconcile neither with despair nor with nihilism . << I >> knew that a conversation with the author would not settle such questions , because a man is not the same as his writing : in the last analysis , the questions had to be settled by the work itself . Nevertheless << I >> was curious . When Beckett's name came into the discussion , the priest grew loud and told << me >> that Beckett `` hates life '' . That , << I >> thought , is at least one thing I can find out when we meet . That , I thought , is at least one thing << I >> can find out when we meet . << I >> reconstruct his sentences from notes made immediately after our conversation . << I >> suggested that one must let it in because it is the truth , but Beckett did not take to the word truth . When Heidegger and Sartre speak of a contrast between being and existence , they may be right , << I >> don't know , but their language is too philosophical for me . When Heidegger and Sartre speak of a contrast between being and existence , they may be right , I don't know , but their language is too philosophical for << me >> . << I >> am not a philosopher . << I >> granted this might be so , but found the result to be even more attention to form than was the case previously . Yet , << I >> responded , could not similar things be said about the art of the past ? ? << I >> asked about the battle between life and death in his plays . Given a theological lead , << I >> asked what he thinks about those who find a religious significance to his plays . << I >> have no religious feeling . Once << I >> had a religious emotion . The family was Protestant , but for << me >> it was only irksome and I let it go . The family was Protestant , but for me it was only irksome and << I >> let it go . At a party an English intellectual -- so-called -- asked << me >> why I write always about distress . At a party an English intellectual -- so-called -- asked me why << I >> write always about distress . << I >> told him no , that I had had a very happy childhood . I told him no , that << I >> had had a very happy childhood . Then he thought << me >> more perverse than ever . << I >> left the party as soon as possible and got into a taxi . On the glass partition between << me >> and the driver were three signs : one asked for help for the blind , another help for orphans , and the third for relief for the war refugees . The personal quality of Samuel Beckett is similar to qualities << I >> had found in the plays . As a Christian , << I >> know I do not stand where Beckett stands , but I do see much of what he sees . As a Christian , I know << I >> do not stand where Beckett stands , but I do see much of what he sees . As a Christian , I know I do not stand where Beckett stands , but << I >> do see much of what he sees . Once , then -- for how many years or how few does not matter -- my world was bound round by fences , when << I >> was too small to reach the apple tree bough , to twist my knee over it and pull myself up . << I >> think that my grandmother was not an impassioned gardener : she was too indulgent a lover of dogs and grandchildren . << I >> have more than once sat cross-legged in the grass through a long summer morning and watched without touching while a poppy bud higher than my head slowly but visibly pushed off its cap , unfolded , and shook out like a banner in the sun its flaming vermilion petals . In the work of every artist , << I >> suppose , there may be found one or more moments which strike the student as absolutely decisive , ultimately emblematic of what it is all about ; ; When << I >> try to work out my reasons for feeling that this passage is of critical significance , I come up with the following ideas , which I shall express very briefly here and revert to in a later essay . When I try to work out my reasons for feeling that this passage is of critical significance , << I >> come up with the following ideas , which I shall express very briefly here and revert to in a later essay . When I try to work out my reasons for feeling that this passage is of critical significance , I come up with the following ideas , which << I >> shall express very briefly here and revert to in a later essay . And if << I >> have gone into so much detail about so small a work , that is because it is also so typical a work , representing the germinal form of a conflict which remains essential in Mann's writing : the crude sketch of Piepsam contains , in its critical , destructive and self-destructive tendencies , much that is enlarged and illuminated in the figures of , for instance , Naphta and Leverkuhn . Accordingly , it is the aim of this essay to advance a new theory of imitation ( which << I >> shall call mimesis in order to distinguish it from earlier theories of imitation ) and a new theory of invention ( which I shall call symbol for reasons to be stated hereafter ) . Accordingly , it is the aim of this essay to advance a new theory of imitation ( which I shall call mimesis in order to distinguish it from earlier theories of imitation ) and a new theory of invention ( which << I >> shall call symbol for reasons to be stated hereafter ) . << I >> have chosen to use the word `` mimesis '' in its Christian rather than its classic implications and to discover in the concrete forms of both art and myth powers of theological expression which , as in the Christian mind , are the direct consequence of involvement in historical experience , which are not reserved , as in the Greek mind , only to moments of theoretical reflection . Both << I >> and my feelings come up out of a chain of events that fan out into the past into sources that are ultimately very unlike the entity which I now am . Both I and my feelings come up out of a chain of events that fan out into the past into sources that are ultimately very unlike the entity which << I >> now am . The traditional strategy of the South has been to expose the vices of the North , to demonstrate that the North possessed no superior virtue , to `` show the world that '' as James's Christopher Newman said to his adversaries ) `` however bad << I >> may be , you're not quite the people to say it '' . << I >> was having lunch not long ago ( apologies to N. V. Peale ) with three distinguished historians ( one specializing in the European Middle Ages , one in American history , and one in the Far East ) , and I asked them if they could name instances where the general mores had been radically changed with `` deliberate speed , majestic instancy '' ( Francis Thompson's words for the Hound Of Heaven's Pursuit ) by judicial fiat . I was having lunch not long ago ( apologies to N. V. Peale ) with three distinguished historians ( one specializing in the European Middle Ages , one in American history , and one in the Far East ) , and << I >> asked them if they could name instances where the general mores had been radically changed with `` deliberate speed , majestic instancy '' ( Francis Thompson's words for the Hound Of Heaven's Pursuit ) by judicial fiat . But << I >> suspect that the old Roman was referring to change made under military occupation -- the sort of change which Tacitus was talking about when he said , `` They make a desert , and call it peace '' ( `` Solitudinem faciunt , pacem appellant '' . << I >> murmured something about a possible difference between New Mexico's history and Mississippi's . that is , about one-half of one per cent , which looks pretty `` tokenish '' to << me >> , especially in an institution which professes to be `` national '' . << I >> leave out of account the question of the best interests of the children , the question of what their best interests really are . A dear , respected friend of mine , who like myself grew up in the South and has spent many years in New England , said to << me >> not long ago : `` I can't forgive New England for rejecting all complicity '' . A dear , respected friend of mine , who like myself grew up in the South and has spent many years in New England , said to me not long ago : `` << I >> can't forgive New England for rejecting all complicity '' . Being a teacher of American literature , << I >> remembered Whittier's `` Massachusetts To Virginia '' , wh